The Best of HNT 2005 - MY Feet and SHADOW

So I looked in my HNT file....(yes, I have a premade file for it) and this is my favorite picture from 2005
Hope your new years is calm and you enjoy your Holiday


AHGgggg! ITs THursday!!!!!!!!!!!!! I forgot my man was in court today and he almost got lost on the way because of the sunrise
So today we are to post our favourites of Halfnekkid Thursday, and I have only been participateing for a few weeks so I dont know if this is going to be a past posted picture (dont you like saying that aloud) thank you so much osbasso for your funn
I 'm directing you all to my last entry for 2005 below, dr. phill is on and the baby is asleep. I should be too but Im trying to keep up with HNT
go see what its all about in my links(dont know how to , so i dont bother)
peace and HAPPINESS for the next coming year,
MAY GOD bless you all,
May you discover something bright about your own self this coming year

2005 moving into 2006

If you want to hear what my Avery sounds like.....skip this and visit two post down.....there's an audio blogger and she sounds like Dolphins.
TEll me what you think/ talk back....



so its the last Wednesday of the year and its kinda weird that 2005 is passing. i never thought i was going to survive but it looks like i made it. this year was the biggest year of my life, I endured a mystery pregnancy, I underwent surgery and delivered a healthy baby girl, I married my man till death do we part, we even crammed in Christmas and now my life feels peaceful. The tension and angst of whats to come is no longer a part of me. I can move into the next year and think that life is going to be normal. i don't have any fears,
well, i take that back, i do wonder about when i am going to get back to working. It sucks so bad having to rely on only batmans income. back in the day, we were able to go out and splurge from time to time but with us being broker then broke,,,,not so much anymore.

we had a measly Christmas as far as giving and i didnt receive anything from my new husband this year....Not that i expected so much, but at least i was able to assemble a few small gifts for him. i think he kinda feels bad about it. i told him, as long as he can cover rent this month, thats all the Christmas i want. oh well, we'll see

so I'm wondering about getting back to work. and how do i juggle that with raising my baby girl? it almost seems impossible. my dad doesnt want for her to be in daycare and neither grandparents are fit for babysitting...they might think they want to but the honest truth of the matter is that neither batman or myself feels comfortable leaving the baby with them. my mother has Multiple sclerosis and batman'mom suffers from mystery seizures and a screwed up back. I miss the money and I dont want to have to build back up my clientele...thats so much work and takes time. maybe i should consider working for someone parttime. I'm just not dedicated to doing massage when i could be enjoying my little girl.

Newyears is going to be her 4th month and we started her on some rice cereal yesterday....my baby is growing so much. it kinda hurst to think that she's getting nourishment away from my breast but i knew the day would come. its just hearbreaking in a sentimental mothering type of way. I wouldnt mind having my body be all mine but I've not had that feeling in almost a year. there has always been something belonging to my daughter that i havent had complete control over. Man,having a baby changes things so much. I wrote about how i feel like i ve started into a new book on my life....well the old robyn has alot to learn. time is going to pass quickly the next few years and I want to accomplish everything that i dream of....right now batman is talking about moving to colorado. if we move, he thinks i can just pick up working at a resort in boulder and he can benefit with getting discount lift tickets...i swear, he's always thinking about himself. when do i get to enjoy a plush lifestyle? only when I can afford it because for as long as i 'm with BATman, i'm going to be poor and scrapping the bottom of the soup can

stole this from FOXglove

before the teaparty........... After the TEA party........

Put an "X" by all the things you've done and share it with your friends.
1. (x) Smoked a cigarette.
2. (x) Crashed a friend's car. I wrecked my sisters VW driving it home from the shop. I was distracted with what type of music and junk she kept in her side door , I rammed into the back end of a Ford Explorer...I freaked out when I realize there were kids in the vehicle i hit. Everyone was ok, I was super shaken about it. now I hate driving other peoples cars.
3. ( ) Stolen a car.
4. (x) Been in love.
5. ( X) Been dumped. my freshman year in HS, I was dumped by Scott Danton
6. ( ) Shoplifted.
7. (x) Been fired/laid off.
8. ( ) Been in a fist fight.
9. ( ) Snuck out of your parent's house.
10.(x) Had feelings for someone that didn't have them back. it was more of a crush for entertainment purposess. kept the daily grind more intresting.
11. (x) Been arrested.
12. ( ) Gone on a blind date.
13. (x) Lied to a friend.
14. (x) Skipped school. only once in HS
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15. ( ) Seen someone die.
16. ( ) Been to Canada.
17. (x) Been to Mexico.
18. (x) Been on a plane.
19. ( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire. no But I'm branded on the inside of my ankle
20. ( X) Eaten sushi. and I want some now but BAtman got sick last time and refuses to go to our sushi place anymore
21. (X ) Been skiing. water and snow
22. (x) Met someone in person from the internet.
23. (x) Taken pain-killers.
24. (x) Love someone or miss someone right now. My papa joe
25. (x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
26. (x) Made a snow angel
.27. (x) Had a tea party. my 5th birthday was a TEA PARTY and we played hang the earring on the princess instead of tail on the donkey
28. (x) Flown a kite.
29. (x) Built a sand castle.
30. (x) Gone puddle jumping.
31. (x) Played dress up. now I dress up my daughter.
32. (x) Cheated while playing a game.
33. (x) Been lonely. .
34. ( ) Fallen asleep at work/school.
35. ( ) Used a fake I.D.
36. (x) Watched a sunset.
37. ( ) Felt an earthquake.
38. (x) Touched a snake. I owned a baby King snake for a month but it wouldnt eat so I made my ex. get rid of it
39. (x) Slept beneath the stars.
40. (x) Been tickled. the ball of my feet right under my big toe, I CANT stand it!
41. (x) Been robbed.
42. (x) Been misunderstood.
43. (x) Petted a reindeer/goat
.44. (x) Won a contest.
45. (x) Ran a red light. I call it an orange light (somewhere between yellow and red)
46. ( ) Been suspended from school. nope, I was a pretty good student (as far as all the teachers knew)
47. (x) Been in a car accident. isnt this awfully similar to Question #2 ?
48. (x) Had braces. dont remind me
49. (x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night. BEn and Jerry with my girlfriend Melissa
50. (x) Had deja vu.
51. (x) Danced in the moonlight.
52. (x) Liked the way you looked. everytime Batman tells me I'm beautiful :)
53. (X) Witnessed a crime.
54. ( ) Questioned your heart.
55. (?) Been obsessed with post it notes. .. define obsessed/ maybe I enjoyed them alot....
56. (x) Squished barefoot through the mud. and it freaks me out . I 'm afraid of slugs
57. (x) Been lost.
58. (x) Been to the opposite side of the country. I've been to both coasts
59. (x) Swam in the ocean. Only the paccific and then the Gulf of mexico. also the Adriatic Sea
.60. (x) Felt like dying
.61. (X ) Cried yourself to sleep.
62. ( ) Played cops and robbers.
63. ( ) Recently colored with crayons.
64. (x) Sung karaoke. yup, I find some lonely drunk and make em' sing Sonny and Cher with me .
65. ( ) Paid for a meal with only coins. I have for gas but not a meal
66. (x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't. married my first husband against my better judgement and now thats all history....go figure :)
67. (x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose.
68. (x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
69. (x) Danced in the rain. I was also singing while I danced
70. ( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus
.71. (x) Been kissed under the mistletoe. just this afternoon by my sweetheart BAtman outside our front door
72. (x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about.
73. (x) Blown bubbles. for my Cat Riddler....he always meows
74. ( ) Made a bonfire on the beach
.75. ( ) Crashed a party.
76. (x) Gone roller-skating.
77. (x) Had a wish come true.
78. (X ) Worn pearls.
79. ( ) Jumped off a bridge.
80. ( ) Ate dog/cat food. no but I dared my older brother to eat our dogs food when I was only 5years old...I never did pay him.
81. ( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
82. (x) Kissed a mirror. showing Avery the pretty reflection....you get kinda goofy when you're entertaining a baby.
83. (x) Sang in the shower.
84. ( ) Had a dream that you married someone. not that I can remember and I do have some strange dreams. just not of that.
85. ( ) Glued your hand to something.
86. ( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flagpole.
87. ( ) Kissed a fish.
88. (x) Sat on a rooftop. the last time with my dad at my older brothers home watching the BLue ANgels fly over the Texas motor speedway
89. (x) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
90. ( x) Done a one-handed cartwheel.
91. ( ) Talked on the phone for more than six hours on one occasion. I'm not really one for talking on the phone
92. (x) Stayed up all night. one time I stayed awake for about 4 days solid. let me just say, that really isnt very good for your brain and it will show in your face
93. ( ) Didn't take a shower for a week. I have to be clean but that also doesnt mean I shower daily.
94. ( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree. no but I picked pears while riding bareback in my girlfriends field as a little girl
95. ( x) Climbed a tree that had a tree house. Oh yeah, lots of fun!
96. (x) Been told by a complete stranger that you're hot. several times in the grocery store when I'm alone. It was pretty bad for awhile...I guess guys were learning to pick up chicks while they grocery shopped.
97. (X ) Ever had a one night stand.
98. (x) Ever missed someone so much it still hurts to think of them.
99. (x) Ever loved someone that you knew wouldn't love you back. my love requires no reply
100. (x) Ever been to a professional baseball, football, or hockey game in a stadium. Texas Rangers at the Ballpark in Arlington was one of my first dates
101. (x) Went hiking in the mountains. In Boulder, Co. almost got swept off the side of a cliff the wind was blowing so hard
102. (x) Smoked a cigar.
103. (x) Had a crush on someone you worked with but never told them.
104. ( ) Wished you had the chance to change your profession.

105. ( ) Ever cremated and kept the ashes of a pet you cared a lot about.
106. ( ) Wished you could live your life over again beginning at age 21.
107. (x) Been baptized.
108. (x) Rode a horse.
109. ( ) Sent flowers to someone you never met.

turn down your speakers for this

you better not shout, you better not cry....

Avery just lit up when she realized the new angel bear made music......she was so impressed with her new toy that sang to her. She loved it.
avery with her new 'chew toy'.....the girl making bunny ears on my daugter is Angela, wife to my older brother. Not too crazy for the hat in this picture, these were from last weekend, Avery's First Christmas with my family

Its Christmas eve ! Which means that its also my one week Anniversary today. Our pastor called last night to wish us a happy anniversary, isn't that a bit weird yet sweet? I love our pastor...He actually called to talk with batman about a trip down into MExico to build houses which is what Batman does for a living. but this trip would be him donating his time and work to benefit families down there. nothing like the feeling of giving

tonight we have 'averys second 'first Christmas' with her greatgrandparents, then tomorrow we will have Avery's third "first Christmas" with her great Aunts out in Graham....

the way she was acting yesterday....that baby deserves to receive coal. She was horrible screaming and digging her nails into my face, hope she got it out of her system. actually once her daddy came home from work lastnight, she really chilled out. maybe she hates being stuck at home with just me for all day?
Hope you all have a VERY MERRY HO liday

HNT- Christmas giving for EVERYONE

Half nekkid Thursday was suspended which probably saved my ass from batman, I had some pictures from my wedding day that were , shall we say, 'free spirited'
the goal today was to post gifts for other HNT'ers in the spirit of Christmas giving and i was troubled with blogger today so I give to you:
my baby girl and the happiness that streams from her heart
these pictures are from Sunday at my sister in laws home...our family already celebrated christmas the day after our wedding. Avery was getting tired so I placed her on the floor underneath a desk and she rolled around playing in her own little space with her new bunny.

normal newlywed type stuff

So I'm a married woman now and I feel so much peace. I love being married. everyone should settle down into a marriage. I dont know why it took jamie and me so long to do this, we had been talking about it for over 3 years. and then when i turned up pregnant, we really should have but jamie didnt want people viewing our marriage as just because the baby was coming....I dont agree with that but whatever. that issue did cause some extra emotional baggage during the pregnancy but I'm not going to rehash any of that because my life is so ordinary at the moment. I'm just having a normal day of a newly wed.....I think there is something about being a newlywed that just makes the sun shine brighter and the waffles on the griddle smell yummier. I wonder how long we can call ourselves newlyweds? I think, because we were engaged for so long, that we get to be 'newlyweds' for a proportionate amount of time, say maybe 5 years. shoot, look at nick and jessica, well no dont look at them, they are split up now and that will NEVER happen with jamie and me. I would die first.
someone asked me if I feel like I'm starting my life all over and in a way I do. Its like the life before has ended and I'm starting in on the second book of my life. guess I need to get started on writing the first one while its still fresh in my head.
anyway, I'm having a normal sort of day today except that its the first offical day of winter and also the shortest day of the year. so make use of tha day light and I'm going to bed with my sexy husband early tonight.

please comment and I'm regestered at target

little bit of Bridezilla about an hour till the wedding. everyone was screaming and I told them i could just get even louder and they all needed to shut up because this was my wedding and the guest were about to arrive....
no, not really; just posing funny for the camera with my sister rachel

my girlfriend josanna came up from houston and helped me out with avery. having her there was the best part of this weekend following the weeding itself. she was so helpful and finally got to become good pals with my daughter. we're planning on going down to her place for newyears.
my daddy and me walking down the isle.....I was about to explode and melt all at the same time, I didnt know how I was moving because i didnt feel the earth beneath me....I was on my way to my husband and had tunnelvision.

Avery was being held by my long time girlfriend josanna and during the ceremony I guess avery had a couple words to say. sounded like squeals of delight then an objection to the marriage

our unity candle / alter.....I was worried about the tent catching fire or the flames blowing out but everything went so smooth. have i mentioned how happy and wonderful my wedding was (once it got started )


our beautiful cake was decorated in poinsetias and jamie picked out the dancing caketopper couple....he didnt smash the cake in my face because he's such a good husband...but he could have used a fork. now that i think about it, he knows i prefer finger food, so i am sure he was just trying to make everything perfect for me. *happy sigh*

our first dance as man and wife (it feels sooooo good to call him my husband)....well actually it wasnt our first dance if you count him swinging me in a huge circle after our introduction as MR. and MRS. jamie Bryan


jamie got to throw down on the decks so he had a good time too
i couldnt have had a more perfect wedding, it was full of enough happiness that i know jamie and i willenjoy a life time

wedding rehearsal

for our ring practice....Batman got his ring and I recieved Avery's passie for my hand (we were being silly)
we have a tree in the middle of the grooms side of the tent, we didnt want to pull it up disterubing motherearth for our wedding ....we there are love doves in it and I hung a bluebird of happiness somewhere in the rafters to bless our wedding.(that can by my 'something blue'


I'm getting married tomorrow.....going bowling with the girls tonight, hair appointment at 830am and the real deal at 130. I need some peace tonight

rehearsal today, wedding tomorrow

we have a tent errected in my parents front yard. its going to limit the ammount of space but i think its going to create a very intimate time. i've got to get over there this morning and get it finished with decorations, I need to give avery a bath, I would like to wash my hair sometime, and I need to finish up making my bouquet plus find a bridesmaid gift before this afternoon...

Avery had me up at 11pm, 1am, 4, and again 530....no sleep for me. I want to hire a nanny because this is not working. the problem was that she went down at 830 and I had to stay up to finish watching the two hour finale of the apprentice.
we were out at the mall trying to find me a wedding band and the people at the airport called saying they had located my sisters bag (yeah, my sister came into town finally and when i went to pick her up, her bag of clothes was missing. she had her suitcase full of christmas presents and birdseed to throw at the wedding but no underwear and stuff) and the bagage people were dropping it by the house......I was so mad that we didnt get to look more for a wedding band and had to run home to meet up with rachels bag. jamie said we could still go back up to the mall but it was so crowed and avery was getting grumpy and then i realize i was missing the last of the apprentice which i really in the long run could have done without....oh well, jamie's gay aunt said we could use her band from her previous marriage. I am all for recycling things but Im not sure i care to have momentos from a marriage that turned bad. plus I have never seen the ring and i dont know if its the right size.
what ever, i'm tired and my day is just going to be crazy today. i want to relax but there is so much that needs to by done. like right now, avery has drifted back off to sleep and i should probalby use this time to wash my self

half nekkid thursday- knee clevage

its thursday today and I had the most difficult time getting to sleep last night. I kept stressing over the wedding and how its all just a jumbbled mess in my head....what about the weather? what about the guest? what about the rehearsal? how is this all going to happen? I have to have everything set up by this time tomorrow and it's going to be cold , windy, and wet with chances of snow on Saturday. Thank God my sister arrives into town this afternoon...I'm taking a break from this all to pick her up at the airport and my Dad is DEATHLY sick...how is he going to walk me down the isle? I never got my flu shot and I should have becuase of dear sweet avery. I just want to enjoy myself and have great memories of this day.
so much to do, so little energy, so little sleep, plus I am having a bechelorette party sometime to get batman back. Its my reward for running and planning this wedding alone

dont plan on me being around till at least the beginning of next week. i hope everyone is well and i'll check in when i can.

its ok, you can cry for my wedding

I want to die!!!! with every passing moment the weather for my wedding day (THIS SATURDAY) is looking worse and worse!
I took my car in to get its 30,000mile maintance and wouldnt you know it, those freaks WASHED my car and now we are getting rained on. It's been months without anytype of measurable rainfall here in my part of texas and the week of my outdoor wedding, things start changing. IT horrible! what am I suppose to do? I want to elope and just have a party when I get back with all my friends and family and we can sit around in a big circle and give footrubs and watch the snow fall outside. that would be so much less stressfull then trying to walk in heels in my parents front yard while every one of my guest shivers and curses me for being a nature lover and making them sit out in the cold for my wedding


on a brighter note and keep this a secret yo.....my batman with Riddler...the two hottest guys in town and I love them both more then the other. (he would die if he knew I posted this picture)

Wedding day forecast

Saturday Dec. 17
Mostly Cloudy
High47°F Precip10%
Wind:SSE 8 mph
Max. Humidity:57%
UV Index:2 Low
Sunrise:7:25 AM CT
Avg. High:56°F
Record High:73°F (2002

everything looks ok but its still a little ify on the weather We're still 5days away
only thing I'm worried is that Sunday 18 looks rainy and it could swing earlier on our wedding dayPray,pray,pray that its sunny and warm.My my dress has no sleeves but the ultrabright thing is that holding my baby is getting my arms in really nice shape :) need to work on my lower half a bit and I wish my waist was more shrunken but whatever.He should have married me back when we first started talking about these things...beforewe had the baby. i'm just excited that its finally happening.
If I can get everything set up on Thursday with last touches Friday before the rehearsal things will be superb. Its all falling into place i think. It it has been so difficult running around with a baby trying to get everything accomplished. I believe a small bridezilla showed her ugly face yesterday with jamie but I was still ticked that he did'nt come home from his bachelor party. My my biggest pet peeve is him saying something and it not coming true like how he would be home before 3am...I thought I was being so cool letting him have a bachelor party, allowing for him to have one last crazy night out with the guys. I told him to get it out of his system but I did want to know a certain hour would come when it would be over with. and he couldnt stick to his choice of 3am. Hopefully its not the case with his wedding vows
pastor john is sending me a draft of our vows tomorrow We went over everything Saturday and i still need a bible passage for my dad to read. I figure it will be easier for dad to simply read from the Bible then for him to say a prayer. Even John said my dad might be a little emotional for that at least in the biggining of the wedding :) he knows my family so well.

recovery

he made it home the next morning around 7am and I couldnt say anything to him....there were no strippers, just alot of drinks at razoos and when they got back to his buddies house, batman passed out and that was the end of it....I think i was more mad that he didnt keep his word about coming home at a certain time then anything else...but if he had a curfew, that really went against the laws of having a bachelor party
I dont know, he came home, was in a horrible mood yesterday (probably because he was hungover) but we survived his night out
he took the camera and the pictures are just lovely...makes you feel like you were there

"bachelor party" my ASS!

its 2 30 in the morning jamie said he would be home my 3......I just got off the phone with his best man and he said jamie is passed out on the couch and that was best for him.......


why did I stay up waiting? Im pissed but I cant be because its a "bachelor party"

read the next couple of post.....you will laugh at me!

handwriting analysis Quizz/ you should take it

The results of your analysis say:
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last saturday to be single?

ooo! ICE WARS battle of the sexxxes is on tv tonight......betcha the guys take it (use to figure skate myself from age 5-15) had the grace of nacy kerrigan but the men can land those tripples)


We had our last meeting with the pastor today....It went well ( I think he might have been high on dayquill) his voice sounded a bit sick and his face was all grown out with stubble,,,he was definitely under the weather and his sense of humor was way more then normal...Maybe he's just excited about marrying jamie and me. I don't know, something was off

tonight Avery and I get to sit at home and watch the clock.....'daddys' having his bachelor party and he said he would be home before 3am...... I made sure he took the camera so there might be some evidence as to what the evening entails for him. This bachelor party is going to kill me...I'm being so cool with batman, we were engaged for almost 3 years but it was the fact he thought every husband should have a bachelor party that kept me from marring his ass,
He wins I guess,,,he's getting his stupid party
I told him to at least behave in a manner that would make me proud (what the hell am I suppose to say/think)
the girls are trying to plan something for me but I doubt its really going to happen....Not unless its baby friendly, I'm still not comfortable leaving Avery with out her boobs for longer then 4 hours.
I'm going to go browse blogland and try and not think what batman is up too tonight
should I go and stalk him? Why did he have his stupid pen light in his pant pocket?

So somebody wants to know what is going on with me.......I'm trying to marry my babies daddy before the year is out and to blow off some steam the other night, I believe we drank through a bottle of Rum......Have I told you that my ancestors were pirates? The legal kind..... They were commissioned to protect some coast line in the Mediterranean though my papa Joe was full blooded German, I don't know, the crazy things we tell our children....My parents also say I was conceived in a tent........Not that it matters but it was interesting to share
So the other evening while I was sipping on my rum enjoying the colder temps that TX has been getting....(we actually have ice on the ground, well, not this afternoon but we did have white) jamie and I were suppose to be planning our music for the wedding and neither of us could agree on exactly what song should be played when, and we began fighting like little children over who got to use the computer....Blogger was on and in the morning there was the dumbest post about sex or something.....Forgive me, pardon my blog, excuse the insanity....Lets just say that between the drink and our pastor asking us to be abstinant till our wedding night the frustration level was caput
we have 8 days till our wedding and thank God that the weather forecast is looking up.....I believe it said sat. 17 was going to be around 58degrees! And Sunny so all of this talk from my mother about :"what are you going to do if it rains?" is nonsense and I don't have to curse her undermy breath not that I do.....Im just saying, staying positive about this wedding is tricky with my mother who like s to make all things bad in her mind. But they are out of town for this weekend and Avery and I have a ton of stuff to get done so adios' amigos and I'll post soon again when I'm sober HA! (just kidding)

Half nekkid Thursday_santa baby

oh, my goodness is it really Thursday already!?

Wedding rhymes

what color should a wedding dress be?
Married in White, you have chosen right,
Married in Blue, your love will always be true,
Married in Pearl, you will live in a whirl,
Married in Brown, you will live in town,
Married in Red, you will wish yourself dead,
Married in Yellow, ashamed of your fellow,
Married in Green, ashamed to be seen,
Married in Pink, your spirit will sink,
Married in Grey, you will go far away,
Married in Black, you will wish yourself back.

Advice on which month to marry in is given by the following rhyme:

Married when the year is new, he'll be loving, kind and true.
When February birds do mate, You wed nor dread your fate.
If you wed when March winds blow, joy and sorrow both you'll know.
Marry in April when you can, Joy for Maiden and for Man.
Marry in the month of May, and you'll surely rue the day.
Marry when June roses grow, over land and sea you'll go.
Those who in July do wed, must labor for their daily bred.
Whoever wed in August be, many a change is sure to see
Marry in September shrine, your living will be rich and fine.
If in October you do marry, love will come but riches tarry.
If you wed in bleak November, only joys will come, remember.
When December snows fall fast, marry and true love will last.

what muppet are you?

You are Janice.You dig the groove man, nothing can bum you out. Too bad you're too stoned to notice.INSTRUMENT:Like, you know, guitar, fer sure. LAST BOOK READ:"Finding Your Past Lives on the Web" FAVORITE EXPRESSION:"Fer sure, like, fer sure." FAVORITE THINGS:Peace, love and, like, granola, totally. NEVER LEAVES HOME WITHOUT:Her inner child.http://quizilla.com/users/AutumnSong123/quizzes/What%20Muppet%20are%20you?/

what's weird is that I have always LOVED janice....she's way too cool
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3 months old and all grown up

well, things are going good so far today, Avery allowed me to sleep for a bit this morning though my eyes are still heavy. She's been doing really good now that I have the baby monitor turned down. She only got me up twice during the night (I think it was twice, my nights are still groggy) its so strange now a'days with her....I think she's grown up a bit over the weekend. Something about turning 3 months old is making her do some wild behavior, she wont shut up with her squealing, she is like a pitbull sucking on her hands or mine, whichever she can get to her mouth...Its down right embarrassing. And she wants to look around and see everything. Avery use to be able to lay on her back for some time during the day but now that she's "all grown up" she insists on being held upright....Its starting to get difficult with her again and I realize that my little baby is growing into a new 'big girl' with interest and attitude that she never showed before. Instead of laying flat on her back,,,she's into rolling around...Maybe its the new freedom of motion that has given her the big head. Pretty soon I'm going to have to be chasing her around and keeping my eyes on her like a hawk, before it was more relaxed and I knew that she would stay where ever I layed her down,,,,not so much anymore

pictures before bathtime

dont you just love baby gums?

my day got better....found some more pictures of avery

love languages

Ok I just want to say that it's not that bad folks and I'm not making any excuses here for jamie. I wrote last post while mad and yes, it was horrible to have jamies anger focused at myself but it turned out better then anticipated...He drove to the bar and had something new to be upset about when he learned that they where out of Meresdo (sp) his beer of choice. Serves him right being all pissy with me and trying to go blow his steam at the bar, he looses Ha!
anyway, he returned home before 11pm didn't say anything to me further, the next morning , Saturday still no communication and I'm weighing out the difficulty in putting the brakes on this wedding. We had a meeting with the pastor that afternoon and I was trying to come up with how I was going to explain our little trouble to john, but on the way to my parents house to discuss wedding/ceremony stuff, jamie makes me pull the car over and stop in this parking lot and he starts out with how he's sorry for his behavior and for being bent out of shape over something so little as my lack of obedience in something that wasn't that important. Then he continues with how he's not going to baggar me with it or bring it up again, and that he loves me and still wants to marry me and can we please be friends and continue our day........I had tears streaming down my cheeks, it felt so good to have him apologize and then to actually recognize how hard he had been on me. I think I just needed to have him realize how mean he gets.
Our meeting with pastor john went well, our finally meeting with him is next Saturday. We talked about love languages and discussed the 5-6 different ways people show/ communicate love.........Who would have thought that jamie felt my love through "services" I perform for him. But then when john asked for 3 examples of me servicing jamie and him feeling my love, jamie was unable to recall anything......(yeah, my service is so memorable, I'm ecstatic)
jamie was quick to point out that my love language was the one of verbal encouragement, I respond to him saying words of kindnesss most (I bet it has something to do with the frequency of his nasty words to me that make his kindness so important to my ears)


anyway, I don't mean to disappoint you all, but the wedding is still going on as planned
no body is perfect and at least the pastor talked about wives being submissive to their husbands and clarified that its not about obedience to the man but instead its a willingness to surrender and allow the man to mold/enhance the woman's spirit. Jamie is taking on a huge responsibility here, and I'm not just talking about making a new family unit, he's responsible to God for my spiritual growth
our homework for the week is to read Song of Solomon to each other.........hmmm, should be interesting. I could never read that book of the Bible with out blushing

Friday night temper

I'm tired, I'm depressed, batman comes home and he wants to be mad with me so he has an excuse to leave the house and go out drinking. if he wants to go out and be with the the guys, I will understand but does he really need to be angry with me about something 'tiny' like me not doing exactly what he told me to do? my god, I'm not perfect. I know I come pretty close but today I screwed up a tad and he wants to be all pissy about it.
He comes home from work , doesnt say hello or anything but demands to have the bank card (which we dont have money in the account) and starts calling his buddies out in Arlington.
Hello would be nice....him spending 10 minutes with his daughter would be even better, I've been home with her all day and it sucks when I'm the only person that is able to comfort her. He needs to learn to develope a relationship with her. I know its hard right now because she is so young but this is her presious time...I time when she likes to cuddle , be held and give adorable smiles. He's the one missing out
I just wish he didnt have to be mad all the time. He seriously gets off on his anger and its the weekend so everybody watch out. He's going to be "raging daddy" because I'm not "wonderwoman"....If I gave him this much shit, we wouldntmake it.
I'm just so mad but I have a much better reason, at least I'm not out driving with a sixpack between my knees and an expired registration tag (that my dad paid for and batman still hasnt stuck on the windshield)
I'm fumming
if he goes to jail, is a wife obligated to bail her husband out? good thing we're not married yet

Halfnekkid Thursday - Babyphat

(Is anyone tired of baby pictures yet?)
I found a new trick to sleep through the night, dont turn the baby moniter up so loud. Avery managed to wake me only once during the night and I got to sleep from 330 to 7 am and it was wonderful! It seems that I might not have to have bags under my eyes for the wedding. yippee!
only down fall to this new arrangement is that Avery is a thousand times more grumpier during the day........think she is frustrated that I dont come running at every sound she makes during the night. I'm not a bad mommy, I'm just exhausted. babies and mothers have worked things out for thousands of years with out baby moniters so just because I choose to not use mine does not mean that I'm turning a deaf ear to my child. I'm simply not being on edge every moment that she's not in my arms and it's truly about time. She's 3 months old today . (happy birthday big girl) and its high time that she learn to manage some of her complaining at night on her own.