a Cave family

so we're a week into his sentence and i'm managing things SO Much better then i thought it would go. very stressful at times with all the screaming that goes on in the house but its at least just the kids and not my voice.

I'm so happy to see my friends on here and apologize for not making it around to comment though i've read your blogs. hands tend to be so busy and always ocupied with diapers and feedings...... gosh, feedings make me feel like i'm a farmer to swine. seriously, i'm able to cook up some sort of breakfast in the mornings and throw it out on a tray in the living room while the babes just sorta fling it around and get some in their mouths. its impossible to sit down and actually spoon it into benjamin's mouth cause then avery's not eating and wants to "help" spoon it and then its a half hour later with the same mess and only one child's eaten. I'm doing what works but sometimes I wonder how badly I'm making it at motherhood.

avery's Brilliant, she only just turned two lil' over a week ago and when i asked her why benjamin was acting so bad and screaming, she simply put it, " Dada." meaning, because dad's gone, benjamin's acting up. avery's just smart and amazes me.

its going to be so weird living the next couple of months just the three of us and then having to reintroduce their father to them. that's the roughest thing to think about cause in the mean time, we'll have developed our lives without his presence just to have him intrude once again. hopefully it wont be too abrasive. Itll been nice. I miss having him. my feet need massaged.