happy Family

he came home after a week long trip to Louisanna. we've got our wedding bands back on. seeing how this goes. its been more difficult having him home then dealing with the two babies on my own for a week. Benjamin's got a follow up with the urologist tomorrow. will keep you posted.

sorry i've been so slack on posting on blogger. I've been cheating with my other blog mostly cause the comments i recieve about my personal life are getting to be so hurtful and rude here .

the delete buttons getting to be my closest friend these day's . I'll type something and retract it and try it all over again. nothing's coming out of my head , i've got so many fences up

i've got a notebook on my nightstand that i'll scribble in but I'm thinking i want one of those diaries with the little lock and key.

I drempt lastnight that i was on a scuba diving team, something like a crew of firefighter's but we worked in the water. I had to extract a 12 inch needle from my hand , some sort of pinyfish stuck me and it was painful and freaking having to yank it out myself. my hands have been having trouble with falling asleep during the night and i'm guessing its from all the work and i'm wondering how much more massage is left in them. i want to have inspector gadget parts that i stick on my arms for work,,, little mallets and progs to dig into shoulder blades. it would be a relief to my hands for sure.