Wednesday, June 06, 2007

the urologist pulled on benjamin's lil boy part and made him cry. evidently i wasnt cleaning him well enough and didnt know to yank on it till almost erect. Dr. said he was fine and to not bring him back. made batman smile to hear that jr. size is great. the Dr. just said it looks small now cause Ben's so well fed and has a pooch to hide inside. I'm just glad we dont have to continue with these visits and ben's been given a clean bill of health.

we have to find a childsitter soon. batman's going away for an unknown amount of time and its just going to be me and the babies. think we'll be alright. we were great while he was gone out of state for a week but this time it's probably going to be a month or two. probably wont still be married unless someone speaks up and tells me to do otherwise but no one is. its sad...... these last few days together and i'm trying to create a sense of peace and some happy memories for everyone. we went to the lake with the kids on Sunday, had a date night Monday (dinner/movie) with batman and its all going to be ending in a week. he's not talking about it a whole lot. more worried that i'm going to return to talking with MFl while he's away but if the marriage is over....... I'm just torn in so many ways. ( its jail if yall really were wondering)

oh and it's my parents 38th wedding anniversary today! i've always' dreamed of making it to the Big 50 year anniversary..... i think that year's gift is a trip to the moon. oh well.

7 Comments:

Blogger Violet said...

Wait - your marriage is over? I didn't see that coming because you two seemed so intent on making it work. I think you'll do great even if you have to be a single parent for a while.

June 06, 2007 11:58 PM  
Blogger ~art said...

hang in there and if you need to talk ..we're here.

June 07, 2007 5:34 AM  
Blogger jenn said...

hold steady, robyn... you're an insanely strong woman with a good head on your shoulders. you are going to be completely fine. it's admirable that you two are trying to make some good, peaceful memories for the kids, and who knows how things will really turn out. but while he's away, take care of yourself and the babies, which i know you will do, and look forward. that's all you can do, really.

June 07, 2007 1:46 PM  
Blogger Chris said...

I have heard that the moon is very pretty this time of the year.

June 07, 2007 11:05 PM  
Blogger Chris said...

P.S. Here is your online "Society of Love" kiss.. . X (or is it an O? I forget.)

June 08, 2007 4:53 PM  
Blogger RILAH said...

you never know, the two months could be really good for him - lots of time to think about what's important.

on your otherhand...temptation's a bitch.

i know you'll do what's right for you and i think whatever it is, it will just happen.

and dammit, i need to know what your other blog is! love and hugs.

June 08, 2007 10:36 PM  
Blogger Honey said...

good luck
I find my blogging great therapy so I'd urge you to continue, you have a lot of support.
keep stong.

June 12, 2007 1:38 PM  

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