What Avery's week has been filled with

Swinging at Chisholm Park last weekend with uncles and grandpa

walking at the park , uncle roman is pushing then grandpa and uncle rory with his windblown hair.

getting a refreshing drink from my spray bottle

messing all over while eating some carrots

Pictures of Avery = 19 comments
Pictures of Johnny Depp= 4 comments

my little brother Roman came home from College last weekend to Walk Dad. Avery and I have taken Dad to the park and done at least 2 miles each day: only trouble is today its raining so I guess no park, no walk, no getting my fat butt to shrink on this lovely damp Wednesday. whoohoo! Its a holiday my feet need to get propped up and rubbed by someone.
its been kinda weird seeing my dad every day and then walking and talking with him, he's so funny and ran out and bought an Ipod just for the effort of getting him to work out. Now he's talking about getting a dog. I think he's afraid of being seen as someone trying to get into shape and as long as he's got a dog or doing something else, he's not only a fatman trying to get into shape, he'll be walking the dog too.
I'm just happy to have someone drag me along too. I get too nervous going to the park by myself with Avery. The last time I did it, there was a Muslim woman pushing her little boy on the baby swing right next to Avery and I. We chatted for a little bit about the ages of our children(she had 3 other running around and the father was filming with a camera) after awhile I was trying to get Avery's attention because she was slumping over in her baby swing almost hanging out of it starring at this woman. Like STARRING HARD, I guess because the lady had her head covered with a veil and was talking gibberish-dialect with her little boy. Avery would not turn away from watching this lady and minutes were passing by and I was starting to get embarrassed by my daughter. No matter what sounds I made, no matter how fast I swung her, no matter how funny her bumping into me was, Avery simply wouldn't quit starring at this lady.
I guess It was a combination of my anxiety over Avery's behavior and frustration over not being able to control her but I started getting these crazy thoughts that the park was no longer safe. That there are maniac Muslims that strap bombs to themselves and take their children out to the neighborhood park for it all to be blown up and destroyed.
I packed up Avery and we had to leave before the carnage. Was that weird or unnecessary? probably but who ever said fear was rational emotion.

Tag I'm "It" ,AGAIN!

I was tagged again by kimberly (second time in less then one week) I must come up with some better answers so here come the lies

Here is my list:

1. Accent- Argh, like a pirate !
2. Booze of choice- Rum
3. Chore I hate- drawing maps of how to find my booty
4. Dog or cat- fer dinner? I guess a cat
5. Essential electronics- GPS to help navigate the high seas
6. Favorite perfume/cologne- sea mist by moonlight
7. Gold or silver- treasure is treasure I says!
8. Hometown- Port Texas
9. Insomnia- never heard of those waters
10. Job title- First mate
11. Kids- got the lil skipper Avery (7 months on Saturday)
12. Living arrangements- my bed, my bathroom, stay out!
13. Most admired trait- how sweet my breath is first thing in the morning
14. Number of sexual partners- one at a time please
15. Overnight hospital stays- 5 days , 4 nights at the local Harris Methodis Hospital, (Room service sucked and wouldnt let me eat anything but jello and Icecream )
16. Phobia- Needles, the dark, loosing my daughter to illness or death, sharp objects, going down stairs, someone is trying to poison me before I can poison them
17. Quote- "SHiver me timbers!"
18. Religion- Christian cause thats how I was raised
19. Siblings- 1 sis, 3 bros.
20. Time I wake up- when the baby does
21. Unusual talent or skill- entertaining myself with only my mind
22. Vegetable I refuse to eat- earthworm ,,,, What? it comes from the ground!
23. Worst habit- I love making up false hoods
24. X-rays- only with my goggles on
25. Yummy foods I make- we call it "slop" but BAtman loves it (beef stew)
26. Zodiac sign- Pisces (the fish of course)

And Avery has this to tell you about her week:


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zzz345r4avw HN (she is thinking rightnow about what to say next)

ub uZ uuhtuk6 'k =[ vft r87 I love my mommy and daddy and my unicorn and riddler and simone and jarobie the kitties


guess that's all for a 6 month old. hope you enjoyed :)
oh, and the answer for what the tat on my foot from yesterday's post means is : " to live"
anyone who read my comments should be highly impressed with Andy who speaks like a parrot and knows all about languages. such a wordy/smart guy !

HNT_ My Nekkid CAt and toes

I finally got my toe nail polish taken off lastnight, it had been getting chipped and I have a bad habit of picking so I fixed the problem and am going nude right now to help grow and neutralize the condition of my nails.
my CAt Simone is nerotic (as are most female cats that I know) and has a passion for anything stinky. though my feet dont smell this morning (I washed them and have checked for oder) Simone is seen here adoring my feet.
a really bad secret I have is that she loves smelling stuff so much that I have given her bengay and she sits there in a coma licking and drooling from the corners of her mouth. It's not animal cruelty....She finds the bengay on her own. like if I've had to use it on my back after a long day of doing massage and then I sit against a pillow, sHe'll be there for hours licking at the pillow case.
ANd the tat is my second and it hurt the worst out of any of them. there is no meat on the top of the foot so all the vibrations of the needle just banging into the thin flesh cause crazy pain. It was done newyears eve 1997 with my ex best girlfriend that I mentioned in yesterdays post.
I was nervous enough having my foot up in some cute guys lap but the pain was alot to tolerate so I was doing everything in my power to cut myself off from the discomfort....after a couple of minutes the tat guy (Adrian from Pair'O' Dice, Dallas) stopped and held my hand saying that I really needed to calm down, that he couldnt keep working with the way I was behaving. I looked down and my entire left leg was shaking uncontrolably and I hadnt even been aware. I was so embarrased and gained a better grip of myself so the art work could continue....guess alot of it was nerves.
and I know you all are wondering what on earth its suppose to be but I figure I'm going to make it a quiz . Take a guess as to the meaning, is it :
a.) to live
b.) to conquere
c.) peace/tranquility
d.) remember always
and it might help if you relize that your looking at it upside down in this picture :)

That quiz was a challenge so I offer more fact about myself

6 Things
I was tagged by Kimberly so here it goes:
I must write 6 weird/ things/ facts about myself & then choose 6 people to tag.

1. I smoked part of a cigarette this morning and got high off of it
2. I ate Indian food last night that looked like my Daughters diarrhea
3. I drempt that TimeSquare in NY was flooded and I was touring it on a cruise ship
4. My BestGF in HS dumped me after 6 years because she said I was a Witch because my hair grew faster then hers. She also blamed me for her dropping out of school. I want to look her up but I'm scared she's even crazier.
5. I want my family to one day be on the game show Family Feud
6. My Freudian slip: I keep saying I have to take Avery to the Vet (she's such an animal at times)

I dont have time to post taggs just yet, I've got to take my daughter to the vet to see why she wont stop pooping. Hope you feel like you know me better, I didnt mean to make that quiz so difficult

Avery's mom 101:
Here's a game for you all to play

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=060321182800-597396&

its simply a quiz to see how your reading comprehension is.

I'm giving you the un-timed test,
so goodluck, keyboards ready..................................Begin!!!

blogger is messing up my profile picture and wont allow me to update any info on there....might just have to create a new blog eventiually.
my time without the baby on Friday night made me go a tiny bit bonkers...i got all paranoid thinking Batman had run off with my baby because he was mad with my whole family after the way my dad talked to him on friday night. turns out everything is ok with batman and the baby and me, i just wasnt use to being home alone. like i said it had been weeks since i was by myself. wish i had more time like that, i think i could have gotten alot acomplished in my brain and around the house but oh, well, probably not for a couple of years anymore.
Avery is sick again, this time with tummy trouble. yesterday she flooded her crib twice, once waking up in the morning and then again after her morning nap....talk about gross. I made batman get her up from her nap and I heard the usually mubblings of what a jerk i was for making him get the baby and what a mess she had made (a second time in less then 4 hours) I get around to helping get the bedding prepped for the wash when i realize there is poop splattered across the dryer door handle. BAtman had just thrown all her sheets across her room and our washer/dryer sits right outside her door in the hall way so when they hit the side and slid, they left yellow, creamy residue. The thing we argured about here was : Batman wouldnt take responsability that he was the one who had done it (come on ! it s simply baby poop and you know you flung it, just addmit to it cranky bastard!) anyway, her poop hole is terribly red, I was out with a girlfriend today and Avey kept filling up and overflowing and we went through all her extra clothing so now She's home and in bed once again. her daddy's suppose to be bringing some pedialight home for her. poor baby doesnt feel good, it just breaks my heart to see her so low on energy and gushing from her rear.

Your listening to the new MRS. Batman, I got my name switched over today at the DPS, I was holding Avery While they shot a new picture for my ID (at least I got makeup on today) It was so Hectic and Avery kept the WHole Audience of 35 Others there entertained....The young cheerleader girl in line ahead of us was pestering her mother that she wanted a little sister saying how cute Avery was. I felt badly for the mom and offered to allow them to take Avery home for at least the rest of the day.....I know I would end up missing her too badly tonight
I dont know.....Batman is out with the Baby and I have the home to myself....it's Friday night and I have the laundry done...(those are such holy words) did I say that Batman is out with the BAby? He came home today and my dad is being a tottal Jerk. yes, Batman was suppose to finish the project by today and hasnt even gotten the foundation ready .................
never mind, I dont want to talk about that, my father is a tottal Ass at times
and tonght He got turned towards my husband. Batman came home and took a shower and then offered to keep Avery for a little while. I dont think I 've been away from my baby in weeks now, it feels so invigortaing like I should go out for a jog but its dark and thunderstorms are clapping outside.

A Saint patricks day Joke:
John O'Reilly hoisted his beer and said, "Here's to spending the rest of me life, between the legs of me wife!"That won him the top prize at the pub for the best toast of the night!He went home and told his wife, Mary, "I won the prize for the best toast ofthe night."She said, "Aye, did ye now. And what was your toast?"John said, "Here's to spending the rest of me life, sitting in church beside me wife.""Oh, that is very nice indeed, John!" Mary said.The next day, Mary ran into one of John's drinking buddies on the street corner.?The man chuckled leeringly and said, "John won the prize the other night at the pub with a toast about you, Mary."She said,?"Aye, he told me, and I was a bit surprised myself. You know, he's only been there twice in the last four years.?Once he fell asleep, and the other time I had to pull him by the ears to make him come."
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Happy St. patricks day !
last night I went to play poker with some friends and my sister and her boyfriend, Batman was suppose to come but didn't feel well enough so I took Avery with me and had such a good time. I really had never played a serious game of poker before but as it turns out, I've got a touch of "Gambler" in me. Wish we had been playing with real money, I would be rich right now LOL

I had to take Avery in for a repeat 6 month check up, two weeks ago she was suffering from respiratory trouble and the Doc said we should wait before giving her the shots. I was so amazed when Avery barely cried getting her vaccinations yesterday. She simply layed there and stared at the nurse while I had to hold her arms and legs. It wasn't until the very last shot (she had to get 3) that Avery let out a small wail that lasted all of two seconds...I'm so proud of her. Seems that she's a much braver baby then I am. Either that or she has no feeling in her chubby thighs.

Batman got up this morning and headed back to work out at my parents barn....Guess he's feeling a bit better. He was doing his regular yelling at me yesterday (getting mad and saying that we don't have a real marriage because I've failed to get my name changed) and I was crying saying that I missed having him be a friend to me....Finally after some time went on, he wavered between being nasty and then telling me he didn't know what was wrong with him, why he was being so shitty to me. At least he recognizes that he's been an ass to me. I know that he's been under some stress getting this project rushed and its from my dad, but him yelling at me saying these hateful things about our marriage simply because I haven't gotten my name changed to his since we've been married....I guess that could be a point of anger for him, I don't know, I guess I'm sounding like I'm making excuses for his behavior. I really care about him and I know he's struggled with his anger in the past but these last few days have been out of the ordinary for him. I'm wondering if he needs to have a brain scan or something to see what's happening with his body/ temperament....He fluxuates back and forth and it really seems to be hurting him that he's behaving this way. he doesn't mean to. (and yes, I understand that to be classic abuser behavior) but I know we aren't too far into this that I need to abandon all hope and run away. BAtman needs someone to help understand what's ailing him.
ok, I'm really tired of talking about batman because so many of you are warning me about domestic violence...I really do appreciate that you care and I've taken everything in and contemplated it all but for today I would like a break from it all . Its St. patricks day and the start of the weekend. I've got to run to the DPS and see if they will help me get my name switched over.....We'll see and I'll keep you posted. It's just such a hassle getting everything changed and It does take a bit of time especially when you're hauling around a baby.

Half Nekkid Thursday- my shamrock

Its the Thursday before ST. patty's day and we've been asked to show some green.......
I keep my luck of the Irish close by on my Shoulder, it was my first tattu back when I was young and 18 and 'wild'
the Shamrock is inside the sign for "Man" and I use to say it was so I was lucky with Guys.........cant say that is has worked very well. though I do have a man of my own now.

It's been a couple of weeks since I posted for HNT (an entire month) but this week was a great week to get NEkkid and Honest.
If you want to know more about HNT, check out the Great Osbasso in my links to the right.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^update on the family:
he came home sick yesterday and fell into bed around 4 in the afternoon. my day with avery continued , we got a chance to spend some time with my sister and that wore Avery out so she was in bed by8. and i figured since he had already slept for 7 hours it wouldnt be a thing for him to help quiet the baby around 11pm ....i got called a selfish bitch.
I didnt realize that he was 'sick' i thought he was merely tired. this morning he took off for work complaining when i asked him to take the trash out , dad ended up sending him home so he's back here with me and our daughter today. I made him some hot tea and toast, his stomach isnt feeling well....could it maybe be the rage he's been showing me? He's sleeping again so i guess i've got to keep the baby quiet or else suffer the rath of sick Batman.

this is my wonderful husband when we are getting along, picture taken 10 days ago
I know you...
I know you like the back of my handFrom the moment we met, I knew youI know how you thinkI know when you are being honestI know when you are lyingKnowing you has always felt like home.As the years passWe drift like boats on the oceanSometimes closer togetherSometimes farther apartYet I still know youWhen we drift apartI know the waves of life willbring us back together againI am patient because I know youSome days you are way off on the horizonI can barely make out your imageWhy are the waves taking so long this timeI remember youI miss youI want to know you againI tell myself that I know youand that you will drift back againI am patient because I know you
added later: Relationships of every kind,if the relationship survives long enough,go through seasons...If after every winter, you know there will be a spring,you have found Love...*
posted by addict

batman with Avery while up in colorado
well it hasnt got any better. I guess monday night was a fluke with Batman being sweet to me. He got home lastnight and the nastiness continued (didnt help that he came home at 11pm wobbly with a cooler of half drunk beer). No wonder i was reluctant to buy into his apology. I knew he was just going to turn mean again but i didnt think it was going to be this soon.

I think I'm getting a bit depressed over this whole mess. I was thinking this morning about what a bad mother i 'm going to be......dont have any reason to think that other then the things that Batman tells me. It hurts so much when you're told all the time that I'm the problem and how rotten a person I am.
I was going to pack it all up and take Avery and run away earlier this week when it was so nasty,,,not sure where too, Avery and I dont have any money and Batman takes the credit card everyday. if he would simply leave it behind for me , i would be out of here in no time flat at least to take a break and disappear for a night. it wouldnt make things any better i dont think,,,,He would just get even more pissed off I guess but at least it would take me away from his hatefullness.
last night I drempt that I was having to go to prison and my parents took me for a walk through to see the place. It was our city jail and the inside was this huge underground cave with men and women dressed in uniforms and all walking in a single file lines. my dad was walking behind me and started getting onto my case for not following the line in front of me but it wasnt my fault...the girl walking ahead of me was wandering around and i didnt know my way so i was simply following. finally in my dream, we were sitting at a table and my mother was instucting me to write different letters to family members and what issues i needed to talk about.....I ended up getting upset that mom was telling me what to do and that it was almost time to turn myself into the prison but i wanted to get out of this cave and breath the air of freedom before i had to start my sentence. She was wasting my free time and I got an attitude and because I started clapping my hands at her, the 'disiplinarian' of the jail came and I was already in trouble and they chained me up to this mamoth guy that drug me deeper into the prison to be put away by myself.....I woke up and i hadnt felt that much axiety in several months.

WHat happened to my relationship with my Batman? How have we gotten into such trouble? I really am so lost right now. He's my heart and my love but it doesnt seem that he's there anymore. how do i get things back onto track when things have gotten so broken between us?
it pains me to hear that he cant stand me and that all the trouble is with me....maybe i do need to seek mental help. We've done couples therapy before but it doesnt do a lick of good whenever he lies and doesnt take responcability for his actions. A week ago i was so happy and felt so proud of our relationship....yeah, i guess i was complaining to my dad that Batman wasnt' coming home till late and that caused my dad to tell him to quit working at sundown . He got super mad about that and I know that's the major issue for his bitterness with me.
Yesterday, He asked me to get permission from my father to allow him to stay and work till later. He's going to need to if he's going to finish this project by Friday. Batman was telling me to hang in there and allow him to get this done and he would make it all up to me.....yeah right! I believe that when he comes home like he did lastnight and was nasty again.
I'm getting tired of this mess; talking about it on here helps get things out but really I'm starting to feel like I dont care to blog about my personal relationships to all of you. I dont want to drag you all into my trouble. I do enjoy your inspiration, epecially the idea of poisoning with laxative ( I was coming up with a great chocolatechip cookie recipe) but really I wish I was able to blog about the happiness in my life.....there just isnt a whole lot of that these last few days.

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"IMPORTANT HNT ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
WHEREAS: Friday, March 17th is St. Patrick's Day, and
WHEREAS: on that one day, EVERYONE is a little bit IRISH, and
WHEREAS: tradition holds that everyone should wear green on this day, and
WHEREAS: HNT will occur on the day before, and
WHEREAS: OSBASSO claims some Irish heritage,
IT IS HIGHLY URGED that all HNT participants include some bit of green in their next HNT picture."

blogger isnt allowing me to upload any pictures, sorry

I'm probably going to end up regretting that I posted what I did yesterday. It always comes back to bite me in the ass when ever batman figures it out. oh well....... yesterday he called and tried to apologize.....I didnt want to hear any of it. he's hurt me too much. most of what he was yelling was how he doesn't care or love me and he wants out of our marriage; real hurtful stuff and i was weapy and sad all day. But I did find some joy looking up poison on the internet. My best bet is to find some cadmium, toxicology reports don't show that heavy a metal unless suspicion is brought up to look for something like that, otherwise it looks like grastric trouble.
I know its horrible to think about poisoning someone, but if he wants out of this marriage so badly , I would be more then happy to help make it happen especially when he's so hateful and abusive.
He was telling ME that i need mental help so I'm sure I would get an insanity plea
anyway, he was apologizing and trying to make things better over the phone, he sent me a text message saying he does really love me but its so hard to feel it when he's done this all before. I didnt feel like accepting any of what he said. when he did come home (i really didnt feel like having him there) he wanted to take me out to dinner and was doing and saying everything possible to be sweet to me. I swear i thought he must have eaten some ecstasy tabs because he was being irregularly nice. I kept trying to see his eyes and they did look a little glossy so who knows....maybe he was doped up and being affectionate. Wish it would be a steady thing for him. I had written a short note telling him how he's so good at communicating when he's angry and how words just fly out of his mouth when he's pissed off. he read it and agreed to try and work on expressing himself when he's not so angry. guess we'll see.
Avery and I went to bed around 10 and Batman said he needed to get some things done and would be coming to bed shortly and he asked if he could hold me when he did climb into bed; I just said whatever and turned out the lights. It was 3:30am when i realized that he was still up at the computer (maybe he was high and couldn't get to sleep) finally he came to bed and slept for a few hours before the home phone started ringing at 6am.... one of his buddies called to see if he had slept through his alarm to get to work today. Evidentially he has till Friday of this week to finish up the work out at my parents barn and he really hasn't gotten any of it started yet. He's been out there a whole week now building a frickin shed to keep his stupid tools in and hasnt even begun the add on to the barn that my dad has asked for him to build. guess the rush is on , at least he has an excuse now to work like a maniac out there with this new deadline. Glad that my dad is starting to crack the whip. I think Batman needed to come to terms with the fact that he cant simply lollygag around playing all day with his tools; that there 's a project that needs to be completed.
I had the most Awesome dream last night. cant go into it too much but It did have this thick, muscular Arial ski jumper in it and he had on those skin tight body suites.....very nice to be sleeping with such an athlete in my head. hope he comes around more often :)
and Avery is getting her bottom teeth in! she bit me yesterday and left a mark on my thumb....I'm going to have to be more careful and teach her about not biting. we've already had some close encouters with nursing so I think her days at the breast are numbered. mostly that is for comfort and nurturing, she really gets most of her nutrition from eating other things. she's such a good little eater. anytime I have anything infront of me, Avery wants to have some of it. lastnight at dinner, BAtman was sharing his fish and sweet potato with her....he even volunteered for taking her to the bathroom to change a poopy, can you believe it?! he really was putting on a good effort to be a good daddy and husband. We'll see if it's going to stick or if he was simply High.
going to call it a post and end it here. thank you all for your support and encouragement. I seriously live day to day for reading your input.

my husband doesnt come home from working out at my parents till after avery and I are already in bed . instead of going to church with the family yesterday , batman gets up and decides that he needs to go and fool around up at my parents barn. I think he's having more fun with his new tools then he does with his daughter or wife. and whenever he is home he teats me like crap yelling at me. this morning he shoved me down on the couch three different times. all I wanted to do was pick up my baby and take her away from the yelling.

does anyone know where i can get my hands on some arsenic? I want to poison him.

publish this blogger or you get thrown in the toilet

I've been tagged by Jubi. the directions are to come up with words that describe myself using the entire alphabet. So here it goes. (think I might have to use the Dictionary)

Abhominal (inhumane)
Baby farmer (one who keeps a baby farm)
Cackler (one who prattles, or tells tales)
Devoted
Evolving
Flirty
Gramatically challenged
High maintance (not really)
Insane
Jocular (given to jesting, Sportive , merry)
Knowing
Lovable
Motherly
Nursemaid
Obstinate
Perfumed
Qualified
Racist
Sticky
Tasty
Unforgettable
Venemous
Weary
X- rated (yeah, that was lame)
Yours truly
Zealful
666666666666666666666666666

how about this....... http://www.mugshots.com/TV/Michelle+Rodriguez.htm
I never did like this girl.



ANd just because its funny.......http://www.mrcomputerservices.com/DancingHippo.htm

can you see the excitment in Avery's face?
Batman hit the Jackpot playing Skiball for my birthday
And I hit the jackpot in the Bedroom.............
I played HNTuesday over the cell phone with Batman yesterday, felt a little silly but it was well worth it when he got home. we took our time and I did my best to be more outgoing wich is difficult for me sometimes but I guess I'll say that it payed off. I love him so much and it has felt as though we're falling off the bandwagon when it comes to 'lovin' I know I was sick all last week but the last time I brought up the topic of Sex, Batman said it wasnt the best time because there was dust on the fan.....(what type of excuse is that?) so yesterday I got all the house work done and for somereason, it got me frisky. I think maybe my husband is brainwashing me.

oh and do any of you lady's have a favorite skin/ anti-aging treatment? I've been washing my face with Cetaphil since I was a teenager and have been thinking that I need to get into some stronger, more effective cleanser and toner. my skin never has been that dry or oily; just kinda middle of the road but I know I could be doing more for my face and am taking suggestions.

The bills are paid, the laundry is in production, the baby is napping, my husband is at work, I've made the bed and cleaned the kitchen. I'm having a good morning except there is the last cupcake left over from my birthday that is wispering my name........
I had a non- traditional birthday on sunday. I actually got Batman out of bed and to church for once. Avery was placed in the Church nursery for the first time and she did real well. I think she was delighted with the new toys and didnt notice that I was gone for an hour and a half.
afterwards, my family wanted to take me out to lunch and I told them that with the baby it would be easier if we just ran to Braums (I have been craving icecream for over a month) so we had burgers, fries and milkshakes. Batman had a sundae with candles of 29 burning for me to blow out and everyone sang Happy Birthday. It was fun and then in the evening we went and had a campfire at my parents home and a couple of my friends came over.
it was so much fun because it was so Not what I usually do for my birthday. Typically I have carrot cake and tuna fish and recieve pressents but this year there really werent any gifts. I didnt mind. It was nice getting to have my family and friends with me and the Baby was actually agreable.
Also I have to say thank you all for your wonderful birthday wishes. I 'm thinking that I am going to enjoy being 29 and probably will keep celebrating this age for awhile. 28 was a whirlwind with the pregnancy and now I'm getting into the swing of mommyhood so the maturity is happening with an even flow and I like it.

Batman is adding on to my parents barn, my dad has taken some mexican artist under his wing and is building them a Foundry for their bronzing crap that these guys do. It's really kinda strange having the barn renovated especially for imigrants that hardly speak English. They built a bust of my father and my dad is highly impressed with them, he's looking at this as an investment. their works have sold for over 35K a piece and now my dad is trying to help them out and get in on a good thing. I'll keep you all posted as I learn more about it but right now Its all just starting out. the mexican's had started building onto the barn but they were going about it by Mexican standards using scraps of wood and kinda piecing it together. not realy what my father wants on the side of his barn so he asked Batman to take on the task. hopefully Batman will get this job wipped out quickly and impress my dad with his carpentry skill, its such a huge job for only him to be working on.

I'm really tired of blogging for today, thinkI'm going to go and make the rounds of reading.
hope everyone has a good day

I had Avery's 6 month well baby check up Thursday and we got turned away when the Doc checked her. She's 19lbs 13 oz. and 28" but the Dr. listened to her lungs and she still has a tiny bit of weezing so we get to continue doing the nebulizer. this time only twice a day which is far easier to maintain then the every 4 hours we had been doing. We get to go back in two weeks to catch up on her vaccinations, I'm just thankful that we have a smart Doc who realized that the vacinations would be too much on her little system.

I am having a Birthday on Sunday...... dont know how I feel about it. getting older doesnt hurt untill I look in the mirror and notice the deepening lines around my eyes and mouth. wonder what I'm going to look like when I'm 50, I just have to keep telling myself it doesnt get any better then this and enjoy myself for the day. I started going gray at 21 and these last few weeks my hair has been falling out by the handfuls. It's really quite disgusting and BAtman is amazed at the nest of wet hair left by me in the bottom of the shower in the morning. I read somewhere it's a hormonal thing; After a few months of giving birth a womans hair will quickly start to thin. Guess I'm getting back to the normal side of things again.
Something else I have noticed while I'm on the subject of my body..... is love handles. this time last year I was aproximately 4 months pregnant and the first change in my body aside from my breast growth/tenderness was that about 2" above each pelvis bone I started getting fluffy. there was a puffy layer of what felt like fluid or I guess it must have been early prego fat and now that I've lost all but those last 10 lbs. I'm left with the same small mounds of roundness. my body before use to curve ever so softly into my waist . I remember viewing these mounds on other woman and critisizing their figures as less then mine and now I realize that Its simply momy love handles. do they every go away?

I've got nothing today, yesterday and today I've been in such a fog. my eyes arent working and I keep haiving popping sounds in myears. too much fluid and I cant eat.
Thankfully Batman stayed home with me today. it's 87degrees outside and we're not turning on the AC so I'm even more stuffy.
taken some antihistemines and robutussin junk and it turns my belly into a rolling mess. I hate feeling sick and I hate taking the medicine even more.
good news is Avery seems to be over the worst of hers. dont know If Ill be around for HNT, I know I've missed it for two weeks now.....just not feeling very good.