tuxedo for Batman

Update: the neighbors have a stroller it seems they might have a baby too...wonder if they are breastfeeding because then maybe avery can eat out sometime lol
also the dripping faucet got fixed so maybe some sleep tonight and jamie just uploaded the correct tux....isnt it fantastic. I cant wait to see him in it because it's gonna look even hotter!
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there are people moving furniture up a flight of stairs into the vacant apartment above ours....they are being very loud and I want to yell at them to stop stomping on their way up but then they are moving mattresses.
If by tomorrow, they are still stomping up the stairs, then I will politely ask them to kindly be aware of their excess noise
Jamie and I went out and found his tuxedo....I've never gone tuxedo hunting before. he's going to look fancier then me, his tux is so nice. I honestly am nervouse everybody is going to have their eyes on the groom instead of the bride. He's all mad because I wont let him see my dress before the wedding and I got to see what his tux is going to look like...I helped asemble the colors and stuff. Did I say he's going to look fabulousely Hot?!
the picture is not of the style we picked, but one of the ones we looked at.

drippy faucet means no sleep for mom

ever since thanksgiving my baby girl has been sleeping. not entirely through the night but she doesnt require the midnight feed, the 2 am check followed by the 4 am nursing. Both Thursday and Friday night, she slept solid untill around 530 and it was wonderful. I told my mom about it over the phone yesterday and of course that put an end to the new sleeping pattern.
Why is it when you allow things to go unmentioned they continue but as soon as one word is spoken the gloriousness of it all comes to a crashing halt?
anyway,I' m probably feeling better waking every couple of hours. those two nights of sleep just left me even sleepier during the day. it was probably all the activitey of thanksgiving with family and running around that helped her stay out for the night.
yesterday we just sat around the house and enjoyed our time with jamie being home. I had the worst dream that I dont even want to talk about here, and then when I woke from sleeping lastnight and the faucet in the kitchen is dripping.....couldnt sleep with that so I sat up and just waited on the baby to need me.
she made me wait only 15 minutes...I think the dripping bothered her too


my darling baby Avery with her most favorite person in the world (me) I love my life today

THe pampered baby

its massage time for the baby.....now make sure she has all the comfort she could possibly need





telling me how she likes it done






Avery getting her feet done

new pics for today
had a compliant about yesterdays post
wasnt "cute enough"
good news is that we located the camera that has been missing
it was in jamies truck (go figure) and I had been freekin out tearing the house apart looking for the dumb thing...it took him 3 days before he found it in his truck. and then he forgot to tell me he had found it...I dont even want to get into it
but here are some new pictures that surpass the ugly dog from yesterday

the world will miss him

SANTA BARBARA, Calif. - Sam, the tiny dog whose hairless body and crooked teeth earned him a reputation as the World's Ugliest Dog, has died.
The pooch died Friday, just short of his 15th birthday, his owner said.
"I don't think there'll ever be another Sam," Susie Lockheed said, adding: "Some people would think that's a good thing."
Sam won the ugliest dog contest at the Sonoma-Marin Fair this summer for the third year in a row. The pedigreed Chinese crested had made appearances on TV in Japan, radio in New Zealand and in Britain's Daily Mirror tabloid. He also had met Donald Trump on a talk show set.
Lockheed said she initially was terrified of Sam when she agreed to take him in as a rescue dog six years ago on a 48-hour trial basis. Although she fell in love with him, his appearance repulsed her then-boyfriend and prompted the man to break up with her.
Later, however, Sam became a matchmaker by bringing together Lockheed and her current beau, who saw a picture of the two on an online dating site.
Lockheed said she had Sam euthanized after she learned Sam's heart was failing.
She said she's felt a little lost ever since, and is sleeping with Sam's favorite toy — a stuffed bear he picked up and carried home.

HNT~ Avery's first Thanksgiving dinner

Happy THanksgiving
there is so much to be thankful for....I'm getting married to the best man in the world, we have a healthy and bright little daughter together, my family will be joined by Batmans family for dinner, the list goes on, but I'm saving for the prayer of thanks before we eat
now who goes shopping day after?

bad news folks...our camera is missing. it'll turn up somewhere. its probably just burried in the mess that averys nursery is quickly becoming
I look a little sleep deprived dont you think?




but for now I'm giving you some real pictures of my loveing little girl from a couple weeks ago

trouble with photos

ok ,so I'm having trouble getting this picture to post
I changed my profile pic and hopefully soon it will be correct
tell me what you think
also changed my name to "Avery's mom"
funny how a persons identity can be drawn from having a baby

It's ON for December 17!

this weekend went suprisingly good (I found a dress and it's so pretty) and John our pastor got all teary eyed during the meeting talking with jamie and me. He loves my family so very much and has known us for 15 years...We have so much that needs to be done to get this wedding thrown together.
Avery is napping right now....Who would have thought that laying down with her while trying to listen to a wedding music CD could do the magic...I think her favorite is the king singing "I can help falling in love with you". I know I'm suppose to be thinking romantically about jamie right now but that song brought tears to my eyes thinking about my new little daughter and I CANT help but fall in love with her....I'm such a mushy momma!
I've got so much to do,,,create a guest list and make invites, decide how much of my dad's money I should blow on decorations,,,you know, all the good stuff. It's so crazy, I just want to make sure I'm in the right frame of mind so we do all of this properly....I don't know the first thing about etiquette for weddings...Got to go and find some online help.
the church had a second baby shower (a diaper shower) for Avery yesterday, just a few people came but it was nice.....I've got to get thankyou notes sent out so I'm super busy.
just wanted to share that things are going good....Even my mom seems to be getting on the band wagon and not dragging her feet about how this wedding is going to be too soon. I really want her to be apartof it and to be able to enjoy and celebrate our marriage.
I'm just so relieved that the dress shopping went well. It went better then I expected even if they are having to let out the waist...I tried telling the little Asian Taylor lady that I just had a baby 2 months ago and that my tummy is still shrinking...She still wanted to let it out a tad probably so she could charge us an extra $70.......I didn't go with white, I felt it would be wrong seeing that I obviously am not a virgin, so it's kinda like a cream color and it goes so good with my skin tone...I love it. Sorry I didn't take any pictures..I want it to be a surprise for the wedding day. Well, I'm going to run, I have so much that I need to get done and I don't know where to begin...I guess it begins with me getting off of blogger
have a great day everyone
I'll let you know how things are unfolding

"Following is a list traditions, customs and rituals throughout the world. Some of these are still followed at weddings today.

If an English bride passed a chimney sweep on her way to the church, and the chimney sweep kissed her, it was considered good luck.

In Holland and Switzerland a pine tree, a symbol of fertility and luck, was once planted outside a new couple's home.

In South Africa, both bride's and groom's parents carried a fire from the hearths of their own homes and took this fire to the new couple's home to begin the fire in their home.

In Armenia, two white doves were set free to symbolize love and happiness.
The wedding cake in Bermuda was a multi-level fruitcake and included a small cedar tree on top. This tree was planted and is supposed to grow with the love of the bride and groom.

In Japan, brides change their bridal attire several times throughout the wedding day.

In England, the bride wouldn't allow her married name to be used before the wedding for it was considered bad luck.

In Italy, the groom's tie was cut into pieces and sold to the guests at the reception. The money earned is used for the honeymoon.
Flowers decorated the front of the bridal car in Italy so that the bride and groom would have happy travels throughout life together.

In Japan, ducks or a goose and gander were included in the processional because they mate for life and are a symbol for fidelity.

In Poland, guests paid to dance with the bride and this money is used for the honeymoon.
During the reception in Spain, wedding guests danced a special dance and then present gifts to the bride.

An early American custom -- the bride pinned a small pouch to her wedding petticoat. This pouch contained a small piece of bread, cloth, wood and a single one-dollar bill. This ensured that there would be enough food, clothes, shelter and money for the future couple. "

A new arrival...go and say Hi

Welcome Atley Michael to the World
Congratulations to my Friend Neisha from down under,
the Gestator http://threeplusoneequalsfour.blogspot.com/

my email this morning

i thought the first part of that fruit quiz was right on. sorry i meant to send my comment with the fruit quiz thing but hit send to fast.anyway you and avery are asleep right now and i'm really sorry that your mad at me right now.i do hear what you are saying and i've been trying to drop suttle hints that i hear you and i'm sorry i will work on things with us and not always on the go.i really am sorry and i am working on things i guess i just have to do better.so i will! i do love you and i care about you very much and i do want for us to get things worked out between us.i love you sweetie.i hope you have a good day.





p.s. please still marry me ;((puppy dog eyes)



love you tons
jamie

now isnt that just sweet, I've been stressing so bad about this wedding thing and not having him around to talk with...when he is, he's in a hurry to leave and it has been pretty shitty. i just wanted to talk with him some before we have to go meet the pastor today. he's passed out on the couch right now since Avery had me in the bed lastnight with her, looks like we dont get to talk.
Thank God for the internet

Its the weekend

Well its Friday evening, I have an appointment tomorrow to look at bridal gowns....Its been a mess. Mom left a voice mail saying that if I love her I wont get married this December at their home....She's just stressed over having to get the house ready in such a short notice.....Dads got my back and is wanting to go all out for the wedding and since he holds the piggy bank, I'm sure it's gonna be grand.Hes already working on the yard and planning on renting a tent and people for valet....I only want to get married at their home because they have all this space (19 acres of land) and I want to have a celebration of happiness for everyone to share in .... I just wish my mom would get it together and not be so absorbed with herself. I want her to be my mother and be happy for me. Be supportive and even help plan. shes just the type that has to be negative about everything....At least she's not saying not to marry jamie LOL we're kinda stuck together now that we have a baby...It just is so different doing the whole wedding thing after having a baby. I'm kinda depressed about my body so trying on gowns is going to be a joke. I'm gonna feel like a joke wearing white....maybe I should go with something colored...I don't know, this whole wedding business is easily getting out of control. I just want a simple ceremony, its about the vows, not the catering.
Oh, and then to top it all off, jamie and I get to meet with the pastor tomorrow afternoon....hes got to make sure we're Christian enough before he'll marry us
wish me luck, I'm starting to think eloping might be the answer

HNT , FUN on the Floor

My foot, her face....the tattoo means 'to live' and it hurt like hell


from her perspective life is a little blury


Her foot in my hand...I gave her a little massage and baby lotion is crap, i would much prefer to use oil but then she might slip out of my hugs. Hm, those red pants of hers are now missing.....

i am a great mommy
Happy halfnekkid Thursday to you all.

I don't know what to say today...
just having one of those days that I feel like a monkey clashing cymbal's around, in my mind I'm wearing a green pillbox style hat and have whiskers.....Do monkeys have whiskers?
went to lunch at a Greek restaurant with my friend Robert...Avery cried, the food sucked but it was good getting to see Robert. Shes getting this new habit of becoming tired and really cranky and it last way too long before she tires out
right now I'm typing as quietly has possible but am still scared that any sound is going to wake her up. Guess if she does then she can cry it out or we can go on our walk but its turned awfully cold. And its getting dark so early
Saturday jamie and I have a meeting with our pastor about getting married. For some reason I'm nervous, I'm just lacking a lot of selfconfidence right now. I was going to blog about affirmations but don't have the energy right now to think of good things to say to myself.
Mom called this afternoon and wanted to get caught up with me but the conversation revolved mostly around my milk supply and how its been shrinking
Being a mother and staying with a helpless crying baby 24hrs a day is the toughest most demanding job a person could do. Ah, she cries....................

FOOD FOR THOUGHT:
Cardiologists at the University of Maryland Medical Center found that people with heart disease are 40% less likely to laugh in a given situation than people without heart disease. The key here seems to be stress reduction; stress impairs the production of endothelial cells, which form a protective lining in our blood vessels. A weak endothelium can lead to hardened arteries and, quite literally, a hardened heart.
What exactly is laughter? As HowStuffWorks explains, laughter is a physiological response that's triggered by the limbic system, or the part of the brain that governs motivation and emotional behaviors. During laughter, the epiglottis constricts the larynx, restricting our ability to breathe. That's why a really good joke can sometimes seem pretty dangerous -- but thankfully the breathing instinct always wins in the end.

Well DUH!

the Ferber method of getting your child to sleep
slowly and gradually allow your child to cry longer before rushing in and comforting...this allows for the baby to learn how to comfort herself
Now Dr. Ferber is saying that its not a strict rule and that every baby is different and to listen to your babies cues. Now parents are mad because they traumatised their babies letting them scream night after night following blindly the theory they read in a parenting book
http://www.post-gazette.com/pg/05319/606752.stm there is your story folks
I dont rush to avery's side, but I do arrive with a loving snuggle

99.998%

To help those of you out: (I dont know how to post links, sorry)
http://ultrabright.blogspot.com/2005/08/tiny-print-keeps-things-whispered.html

jamie passed on the test results........I feel a sense of calm and joy,
those words don't explain it well enough, it's a sense that I am allowed to breath again. From the moment I first took a pregnancy test back in Feb. till just now, I have carried a heavy weight of dread. This dread has sat in my belly, back of my throat, and crushed down on my back fearing that this being (my daughter) had happened from a violent act.
I think I'm gonna be ok....I think I can start healing from the rape. The men that raped me have managed to evade the police but now I know my daughter has a man that is her father and she isn't just a result of poor case management. I can put that whole night behind me, I don't ever have to revisit those thoughts, I don't have to be haunted by my attack
I can now finally be excited about the pee test turning positive....Until today, there wasn't real joy....Only fear, the pain of being raped stayed with me because I couldn't be sure where my baby came from.
It's finally over and I am able to breath and cry and have my life back. I can start living again and have memories untainted. There is no guilt, there is no shame, there is no doubt
Thank you God for holding me together and giving me just enough strength to not give up

Avery takes on her Unicorn

Notice she has two military bears, an ecko rhino and an angel bear for protection in her crib......Not that my ferocious daughter needed help wrestling her unicorn



I learned how to upload pictures over the weekend and since a picture is worth a thousand words and I don't always have the capability to type....My post this morning will be visual
have a great day yall!

things about my new daughter

I placed avery on her tummy in her crib this morning in hopes of getting some extra sleep. I've discovered that she stays sleeping a bit longer if she's on her stomach and when she woke up this morning about an hour and a half later, she was completly soaked. couldnt tell if it was sweat, slobber, or if her diaper ran over but I got her up and ripped her clothes off and now her body smells a litle funky....got to give her a bath today.
She does so good when I give her a bath. the last time Jamie did it, she screamed bloody murder...she Hates having her head wet but we got to still shampoo her little hair. About a week ago I was worried about a patch of waxy crap on her forhead that wasnt clearing up. I didnt know if it was from not rinsing her well or maybe she had an alergy to johnson/johnson baby shampoo
I'm a freak about skin and was really concerned about her having some disorder. they tell you not to mess with the babies skin when they start pimpling out but that stage has passed, the yucky skin on her head though never cleared up untill my mother got home and told me it was just 'craddle cap' and it could be picked off. mom spent the next hour picking off my daughter's craddle cap crap and Avery had the worst case of danderuff in her dark hair. another fear I have is messing too much with her hair and causing it to fall out. in Avery's 2 months of life, her hair has been dark which is bizarre for my family. all the babies born have been bald with platnum hair till the age of 5years. I dyed my hair darker after her birth so that she and I would match and thought that surly her infant hair would lighten/fall out by now but it hasnt. it has thined ever so slightly but remains dark and beautiful even through grandma's grooming off the craddle crap.
the pictures are of avery during and after her bath. it's so weird to be in the tub with her when just months ago, I would lay in the tub and feel her swish around inside of me. it's amazing how much life has changed and at the rapid pace my daughter is growing.
these past few days have been acomplished with her learning to grab for things. i'm doing good to place objects in her right hand but when ever i see her focusing on bringing her hands to her mouth, she favors her left
we'll see how it works out.

It's my mothers BIrthday today!

Happy Birthday mom, I hope this year is even better and treats you softly with new age. I love you and think that you are lovely and am proud to call you my mom

HNT

Happy Half Nekkid Thrusday
sorry i know we're not to post babies and stuff all the time
but that's all that is in my world at the moment and she's just so darn beautiful

tell me its ugly

'daddy's home on break for an hour and Avery is content on the floor. a moment of peace so i can blog...
How come no one has ever commented on my striped couch? Not the Chair that I'm in now, but the Sofa in pictures below. Its been mine since dad's parents got moved into the nursing home about 8 years ago; they are both now passed. My grandmother had it for 50 plus years before that at which time it was upholstered in Red and covered in plastic (so my mom tells the story) my dad tells the story that when he was a young boy, him and his older brother ,my uncle Larry got into some type of mischief and were about to receive 'swats' with the ruler on their back side but the ruler broke before my dad received his........
I just love owning the couch that my dad grew up with. Even if it is pea green striped, its a great couch. They don't make furniture like they use to.
my parents hate that I still have it and mom has actually looked into getting it recovered.....I think I would rather keep it shockingly nasty because with three cats, the corners are all torn up and I doubt my cats capabitlity in learning to respect new upholstery

mom with AVery

The picture is of mom on Friday helping sooth Avery after her vaccinations. THe man in the tropical print and captains hat is my loveing DAd....(his ship has already set sail)


I' m up. Its a new day and my baby has been kicking me in the butt since 6am when I layed her in bed with me. She doesn't want me to sleep so we're hanging out in the living room. Typically she does real good at entertaining herself looking at the morning light coming in through the window. I was just so frustrated yesterday because I never have any time to do things I want to do.....It's all about Avery. She doesn't allow for me to call anyone on the phone. If someone calls me, Avery lets me chat for about 5 minutes before she starts screaming for me to set the phone down. I feel isolated from my friends and its miserable. We're going to have to teach her to hold her horses and be patient because she really can be so demanding. I know she is only 2 months 1 wk. Right now but it cant always be about her.
the times I just let her cry it out, she shuts up after a couple of minutes but then starts back up to test the air and see if I come running.....She just gets so loud. Everyday she takes it too a new pitch and it's earsplitting. I cant imagine what tomorrow is going to sound like. I understand why women complain about having headaches....It has something to do with the sound coming from their kids.
I know I'm doing a lot of complaining. I just need to vent. Mom took off for Az. To visit her friend for the week so I don't get to have her help around. It was so sweet on Friday when Avery had her vaccinations, I called over to tell mom how the DR. Visit went and she could hear that the baby wasn't feeling well at all so mom and dad rushed out and brought over some baby advil. It was so nice having them come to the rescue. They stayed for a couple of hours and brought over dinner and the medicine was perfect for Avery....Twenty minutes later and she was open eyed and halfway feeling herself again.
I've been meaning to say that my mom would be on her blog except that she cant remember her pass word (that's just how she is with her MS) not everything sticks with her memory but she does say 'hello' to all of you. I wish she was here in town because tomorrow is her birthday. We kinda went out for lunch after church on sunday to celebrate but it would be nice to get to have mom around.

wits end

she's driving me crazy. she's learning too quickly how to scream and her tempertantrums are horrible (we laugh and say that she looks like an oompaloompa all mad). I'm sure it must be frustrating on her end to not be able to move around yet or to be able to talk. dont know if that would make things better
i just wish she wouldnt howl

grody jodee had her baby

congratulations Grody family
http://designgoddess.blogspot.com/
God bless you

some of my favorite things

the G is for gangsta.....(guess his hat should be sideways)


yes I know my house is a wreck but look at the pretty flowers from my lover Batman...





here are Avery's beautiful thighs

2 month baby check up

First off I want to announce last night as the worst night of sleep I have ever had. Avery went to sleep around 6pm and Jamie didn't turn off the tube until.....I don't even know. I finally switched it off around 2am. But I ended up sleeping in Avery's room with her. She was up from 2 on and slept in our bed for awhile until I couldn't take her kicking me in the side anymore. So we moved into her crib and I stayed in there with her till the morning sun woke us but the in and out of sleep pattern was horrible. it was somthing like this : http://www.cnn.com/US/9905/14/baby.well.03/#r
I had the worst dream that Avery had fallen down into a well and was trapped there for several days. I could look down and see her 50ft. Below but there was slow help in rescuing her. In my dream, jamie didn't want to call for emergency help but insisted on doing it on his own but it took so long to locate the jumping horse that was required to pull her from the well. I was panicking over my little baby trying to smile and talk to her to keep her calm and comforted but time just kept passing and I could only think about how long it had been for her to eat, have a clean diaper, and days were ticking by....It was the worst feeling. During the three days of trying to locate something to pull her from the well, I was attacked by a giant possum. It was drunk or rabid or something but this 40lb rodent was chasing me around the house that we were trying to save Avery from in the back yard....(which happened to be two doors down from jamie's parents home.) lets just say, I don't mind rescuing other babies in my dreams but when it my own personal child that is in danger....omg, the stress goes up a hundred times worse. I never want to have that happen again. I woke up from my dream and just clutched Avery to my heart...In my dream, she was still laying at the bottom of this dried up old well and it felt so good to be able to touch her and know that it was just a dream. It's going to be nuts when Avery has bad dreams and I'm going to have to comfort her. I love my daughter so much.

we went to see her Dr. Today. Poor girl had to get 4 different vaccinations and now is miserable with a temperature (slightly wheezy too) and I'm getting concerned. I need to read the info they sent me home with to see if she's not doing well.
her weight is 14lbs 8oz, length 23 1/2", and head circ. 15 1/2" she's doing good and not one comment about her being too big,,,, just alot of praise on how alert and engaging she is. That's my girl! Avery can be so delightful and entertaining, she knows how to put on a show. I just feel horrible she had shots (I cried) and is under the weather.
I really need to tend to her, so I'll post later

thanks for all the support in regards to the chilli woman, its nice to hear I'm not crazy

Stolen from Violet....

"If your baby's beautiful and perfect, never cries or fusses, sleeps on schedule, burps on demand and an angel all the time, you're the Grandma" - Theresa Bloomingdale


today was nice once we got it started. I made omelets and porridge for breakfast and sent jamie to work. Avery and I made it into the car and ran sum errands and wound up at my mother's for the afternoon. Mom was trying to clean out her closets of clothes that she's too skinny for....Yes, I said skinny and I'm so proud of her for taking the effort to drop the excess weight. She's down almost 50 lbs now and looks fabulous.
after leaving moms, Avery and I dropped by to see jamie up at his work. And I felt like such a snoop. (he works at a local restaurant as a cook and they were slow around 4pm so no harm) there was some story from yesterday about a girl getting into a 'condiment fight' with him and it ended with her pressing him up against the wall and rubbing her body covered in chilli against his....I'm not comfy with the idea. All I know is that he came home saying he had to throw out his work shirt.....But on to my day that was great. It turns out the above mentioned girl was there when Avery and I stopped in and now my feelings are doubly hurt because she said Avery had fat thighs....That is a soft spot with me. I have always struggled with my fat thighs and now the woman I'm concerned about is saying that to my baby (yeah, I know, there are better things to worry about) so tomorrow I'm taking my fat baby to the pediatrician and we get to see how big my darling girl is. I just don't like 'other women' and I don't like my man coming home without a shirt....I tried telling him that when a woman throws food at a man that starts a food fight...She's trying to get his attention in ways that jamie is not allowed to indulge.
like I said before, I felt like a snoop though my original intention was just to drop by and say hello not to do any spy work.
got to run the Donald is starting......I tell you how the Dr. goes tomorrow, wish me luck and safety for Avery

dreams of other babies

I keep having these weird dreams that I find and rescue babies. Last night it was a baby left on the doorsteps of my parents house that was also a grocery store. I picked up the baby and had to remind myself that it wasn't Avery because I had left her sleeping in my old bedroom upstairs but the similarity between the two was amazing. The baby I had found had the same dark hair, was about the same size/age only was a little malnourished. I was so concerned about the baby's weight I ran to ask another mother/checkout lady if she thought it was ok for me to nurse the baby. I just didn't want to upset anyone by shoving my breast into some strangers baby's face , even if the original mom had left her baby behind without any care. I kept wondering if the baby was a boy or a girl...It had on only a diaper and was semi wrapped with a lite blanket. I decided not to nurse this strange baby,i didnt know where it had been and it wasn't crying so I took it upstairs to my old bedroom to make sure Avery was still there and I changed the diaper discovering that the abandoned baby was a little boy, and I kept thinking how close in age Avery and this mistery baby boy were and ways I would be able to tell them apart.
I really wonder if this type of dreaming is normal for a new mom. I guess I'm overwhelmed with concern and care of babies that I'm picking up all these extra ones in my dreams

Its another day only now its the month of November

My little girl didn't get a pumpkin this year but we made pumpkin cookies today
she didn't get to go trickor treating for Halloween but we did get to order takeout for dinner and got to bed early (something I'm having to work on) she'll fall to sleep around 8pm and I need to hit the hay at that time because she sleeps the longest during that time.
Jamie and Avery are going to the clinic today and are getting swabbed.....I'm nervous not about the results but just Ihate having to return to the awful night that I was gangraped....Not sure when the results will be done but I'll keep you updated on the proceedings. I believe DNA diagnostics said once they receive the swabs from the clinic, then it's like 5 business days....I hate that I'm having to go through this
this wasn't how my life was ment to go...Its really been a rough couple of days mostly because I've been having to deal with these things in my head. I just want for it to be over so jamie and I can have our family and know we belong to each other. There is alot of hurt going on and there isn't a bandaide large enough, so many people are hurt and desiring answers, mostly my family
Mom finally got home and the past two days, Avery and I have gone and visited. Mom's been in Florida with her mother(gramB) since the death of her dad. It was inspiring to see mom with my baby. I'm realizing that there is so much I can pick up from her....She bore and raised 5 kids of her own and watching her with Avery helped put a calm in my own voice . I'm glad she's home. Iknow I said I was dreading her being home, I just figured it was going to start the struggle of 'who's the mommy'......It just nice having my mom around. Sometime I
feel so strungout and withered,