Its another day only now its the month of November

My little girl didn't get a pumpkin this year but we made pumpkin cookies today
she didn't get to go trickor treating for Halloween but we did get to order takeout for dinner and got to bed early (something I'm having to work on) she'll fall to sleep around 8pm and I need to hit the hay at that time because she sleeps the longest during that time.
Jamie and Avery are going to the clinic today and are getting swabbed.....I'm nervous not about the results but just Ihate having to return to the awful night that I was gangraped....Not sure when the results will be done but I'll keep you updated on the proceedings. I believe DNA diagnostics said once they receive the swabs from the clinic, then it's like 5 business days....I hate that I'm having to go through this
this wasn't how my life was ment to go...Its really been a rough couple of days mostly because I've been having to deal with these things in my head. I just want for it to be over so jamie and I can have our family and know we belong to each other. There is alot of hurt going on and there isn't a bandaide large enough, so many people are hurt and desiring answers, mostly my family
Mom finally got home and the past two days, Avery and I have gone and visited. Mom's been in Florida with her mother(gramB) since the death of her dad. It was inspiring to see mom with my baby. I'm realizing that there is so much I can pick up from her....She bore and raised 5 kids of her own and watching her with Avery helped put a calm in my own voice . I'm glad she's home. Iknow I said I was dreading her being home, I just figured it was going to start the struggle of 'who's the mommy'......It just nice having my mom around. Sometime I
feel so strungout and withered,