HNT-from one Hot momma to another

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Batman is out of town living in the woods with some stinky hippies at the RAinbow Gathering, He recieved these pictures via cell phone....dont know if he's going to be coming home any sooner . I bet if he sees that I posted these pictures he's gonna make me shut down my blog.
when the dogs away, the kitty will play HNT

things that run through my mind

I saw a picture of pregnant britney spears and I want a white dress for this summer but I want to look pretty in it.
I adore the name Benjamin but I dont know if I should tell the world yet.

an old photo from before kids

what else is there to do on Memorial day but update my blog
Batman was worried at first about being with the gathering. I told him that he needed to go around and make some friends, get aquainted and such. he was nervouse because he said he really didnt feel like he fit in. I asked him why and his responce cracked me up.
"because I'm the only one here with a 40, 000 dollar truck and it seems like the only one that has taken a shower in the last week."
now that he's been camping and gotten to know a few of the brother's at the gathering, they have utilized his truck to gather wood to help build up the kitchen...I'm so proud of him for joining the effort out there though now I'm slightly worried that he's joined in too much and becoming brainwashed to modernworld living. 3 nights of camping with the Rainbow tribe and he's turning over a new leaf talking about ways that he wants to change when he gets home. the mindset out there is more carefree which is probably helping with his anger management and they also have a disdain for people who drink
as long as he returns to cleaning himself and not taking a dump in a hole dug in the earth...i think batmans return to society might be ok. I miss him so much and I'm slightly jealous of his experience out there. (not the pooping in a hole part but simply the interaction with the alternative lifestyle) He wants Avery and me to come up there but I dont want to have to transition my baby to cloth diapers and dont want to offend them with the disposable ones we have been using. maybe for a night, we could be a cool hippie family. God knows i dont care for sleeping on the ground when my tummy is swelling like this. the actual Rainbow gathering doesnt start till the first week of july and there is speculation that there will be between 10-20 thousand attending. I just want my husband home before the natives get topless and he's dancing around the bonfires tripping on acid cause he ate the MAjic whatever from their kitchen.

The RAinbow Gathering

http://www.welcomehome.org/rainbow/sites/annual-site.html
it doesnt start for a month and a half but there are already people 'gathering' and Batman is joining them. HE's staying away from the Agroup (where they have meat kitchens and alcoholics with agressive tendencies) He said last night that he was camping with the Cgroup (the CHill, vegans that are all mellowed and stoned) guess he'll be sleeping good and if the mountain lions/bears show up,,,I'm telling myself that the wildlife will be draw to the smell of the Acamp with its Meat

HNT- Batman bathes his Daughter

.....................................We're showing alot of skin today. If Batman were around he would probably throw a fit(when it comes to modesty, he can be super conservative, not so much about himself but more so the girls in his life) Batman was in Town last weekend from Friday through Tuesday. We got him to the airport too late on Monday night and the security had already gone home so we had to rebook his flight for the next day. It was so wonderful getting to spend an extra evening with him.
this stint out in Colorado is turning to be more and more of a joke. His buddies begged and pleaded with him to come out there to work and he's been gone for the entire month of May. Now He's lost his housing and is basically having to camp out at Mile marker 40 where a bunch of Hippies stay for some summer concert thing....I just want my husband home. This isn't what we arranged for him to do and we can not waste a cent on him lodging at a hotel. My husband is going to be eaten by mountain lions or a bear....He's going to meet up with some pretty little hippie girl and realize what an uptight bitch his wife is.....He's going to grow his beard out further and Avery will never recognize him.......
It was funny picking him up at the airport 4am on Saturday, there was absolutely nobody up there except for some unclaimed luggage and Avery and I waiting for his flight to arrive, it was kinda creepy yet exciting to know we would see him finally after 3 weeks of his being absent. He was so happy to see us and told us that he had missed us so much but he didn't realize how much until he got off the plane and saw us standing there. He held Avery and smiled and was talking to her but after 5 short seconds she wanted to be back in my arms. We passed her back and forth a couple of times....She just wasn't sure who he was, I mean , she knew who he was but she didn't recognize his voice through his hairy face, she kept wanting to get back in my arms so she could turn around and get a better look at her daddy.
its so hard being away from him but its made worse by the fact that Avery is missing him as well. He's been gone again for 2 days and in these last 2 days, Avery has thrown some of her worst tempertantrums....I know she wouldn't dare act like that if her daddy was around. Its a battle because she knows she gets away with a lot more when she's just with me. I don't know, maybe she's acting out because she's missing her dad. Its just so sad
I think the plan is for him to come back home for good in a couple more weeks. This job and the support from his 'friends' is starting to slack off. They failed to even pick him up at the airport when he returned to Denver which they swore up and down that If they could drop him off (they were drinking and didn't want to go home to their wives yet on Friday night) that they would definitely be there to pick him up. Its starting to get dirty and these guys are suppose to be like his brothers...They grew up together and now they are treating him with absolutely no regard. Its just so frustrating to see him struggling, to have us all struggling, its just down right crap!
the bath with Avery was the first for him in a long while. I've been the only one to bathe her probably since she was about 3 months old.....It simply turned into my chore over these last 6 months because it was just something that I got done. I had been nagging him many times about how he never does it and finally this weekend while he was in town, he actually climbed in the tub wit her and gave it a go. Funny story about it : He started to refuse her bath toys saying that Bathtime was suppose to be for her to get clean and not to goof around in. ((?))
COme ON! bathtime for a kid is pure opportunity to get wet, splash about and have a good time soaking the grime out from her fat creases. He lightened up and they both had a good time.
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TGIF

I'm playing a new game and you can join if you like the object of the game is to take a letter of the alphabet and come up with 10 words beginning with that letter , write what those words mean to you personally and then assign new letters to those wanting to do their own. I was given the letter F over at Cat's http://flutteringscissortail.blogspot.com/ and if anyone wants to try this for themselves....Just leave me a comment and I'll assign you a new letter.

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1) Floozy: my mother called me a floozy when she learned I was graduating from massage therapy school(I chose not to tell my family till I was finished) but that didn't stop her from making me set up a table in her living room every week and work on her for the past several years.

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2) Friday: means the start of the weekend, payday for many employed, and the opportunity to go out and enjoy themselves ; However since becoming a mother I get to do None of these things. Friday has no greater meaning to me then Sunday-Thursday.....All the days are equal when I get to wake when the baby does and follow her routine throughout the day. Its a drag to loose something exciting such as a Friday, there really isn't a day to look forward to during my week.
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3) Faggot: I just adore how this word sounds. my Indian Friend refers to cigarettes as Fags and I have had several girlfriends that we lovingly refer to as Faghags because of their close following of Gay men. I giggle inside whenever I hear this word and do not consider this term to be derogatory.
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Fiona: my husband tells me that I resemble Fiona from the movie Shrek. He says this as retaliation for me saying he looks like Darby from the Harry Potter series. At least I'm a princess and not really a green ogre. ............................
Father: my Husband, Batman is Father to my Daughter and regarless of the differences we have in figuring out parenthood, we both have the same immense desire to do the very best for our little girl. He's the only Father she will ever have and I respect the deepening bond these two have.

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Family: has an entirely new meaning these days. I've started my own family unit and I adore the feeling of being the Mother to Avery and Wife to Batman. A few short months ago I use to consider my parents and brothers and sister my family but Now they have become the Extened family. My family unit is made up of What Creations have developed the last year of life through my baby and marriage. I Love my Family more then anything and the feeling brings so much Joy to my heart. I have the Best family in History and we're brand spankin' new!

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Flamingo: I have always thought of myself as being the Flamingo type of Girl...The long legs, the curvy neck and the odd shaped nose. Also I thought it would be pretty neat if I were the color pink!
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Funnel CAke: Need I say more? I have not indulged in this treat in many years but simply the title causes my mouth to salivate. If I were to eat it today, my stomach would probably get sick because I'm not one for sugary treats. Instead I simply enjoy the thought of this delight melting in my mouth.

I've got sonogram pictures

(doesnt the third one from the Top look like Jesus? )
and a due date of Oct.3rd (everyone gasp, Thats so Close to Avery's Bday. Sept1) Doc.G said we'll deliver (c-section again) about 10days ahead of that so my babies are going to be around 388 days apart....That's 12months and 2 weeks!!!! oh, and the best part of it....This baby has genitalia that looks like a turtle, ,,,its going to be a BOY! I'll have a beautiful daughter and and son and everyright to say I'm done reproducing....BAtman has been talking about gettin snipped which is shocking because what man wants cut on down there? Think maybe he's realizing the hardship of being prego with an infant in arms.
I'm just so thrilled that we have a due date finally and I knew I was further along then 14 week. I'm actually 20 weeks and that's the halfway mark! I can do this
also, please notice the cottonball in my elbow pit....I gave FOUR vial's of BLood and didn't kick the stupid nurses ass for being a bitch. I was marveling over the fact that she took that much blood and the nurse was like, "that's not a lot of blood"
me: Yes it is, that like 4 big vial's
Nasty Nurse: No, its not. That's a tiny amount
Me: well, it's a lot to me, give me credit
NN: No, give ME credit
ME: For what? Drawing a tiny amount of Blood (you fuckin bitch)

sorry for the cursing, its just a huge thing for me to get stuck with needles and have them remain in my veins for long. And this nurse doesn't work for my OB/Gyn...She's down in the blood lab. And I guess she sees a lot of blood in a day.


I'm feeling better about how big my tummy is now that I am confirmed at being five months. I think before I was being selfconcious about getting so big so quickly but you have to understand, I didn't have a missed period to go by. I had to start feeling my uterus getting hard to begin thinking that I might be prego. Guess I was probably 12 weeks already by the time I mentioned feeling pregnant to BAtman.
He's leaving again this evening so today is bitter sweet. Just wanted to catch you all up on my pregnancy.

My Husband is returning home today! I cant tell if I'm horny, hormonal, or if I even want to be nice to him anymore. Its been 3 very long weeks without him and Avery has changed so much...We've really come a long way adapting to our pseudo single mom life style and suddenly its getting interrupted for 3 short days while batman comes home for a quicky visit. I've managed to get my OB appointment switched over to Monday so batman can be there for the first visit. I wasn't wanting to have to go by myself, I mean its kind of a big thing. The Doc is going to check me and give me a REAl DUe DAte....so far all we've had is guess work done and I have a feeling that I'm further along then what planned parenthood said. They based the due date of Nov. 21 on the fact that Batman and I were on his birthday vacation in Feb. And nothing more scientific such as a last menstrual cycle. I'm so excited to finally get in to the Doctor. I'm kinda feeling weird about batman seeing me tonight when he gets in....I've got that rounded , plump middle lump and I'm feeling pretty unattractive. His flight doesn't get in till 330am so its going to be an interesting night of getting Avery up and picking him up at the airport. I've missed him so much these last several weeks. But at the same time, I believe my mood swings have affected our evening chats on the phone and lastnight I was bawling to him about how I felt like he had abandoned me.......Isn't that the dumbest? I mean he's coming home tonight and 24 hours earlier I'm acting like its the end of the world. I've just had so much pressure put on me and this pregnancy is tough to deal with him being away.
He's coming home! I've got to get the house picked up , shower n' shave, and somehow pass the time till he arrives. Its been a long time.

We are back from Mother's day in Florida

my mother, GramB, AVery and myself Suprisingly the trip wasn't as horrible as I was dreading it to be. My mother and father behaved themselves and tried to be civil 90% of the time. My GramB was a total Hoot with Avery.
the first evening we arrived, GramB was playing with Avery and talking in baby babble to her. They got along so well, seeing GramB with my daughter was worth being away from my own personal Mother's day.
I'm still a tiny bit sore about my mother being selfish and making me forgo my own First mother's day but I can at least say I'm not doing another thing for her. She's had her fill of me being her devoted daughter or should I say, I've had my fill.
interesting Highlights of the week:
*Avery and I went to a TEa party with the ladies of Gramb;s Church.
*She has learned to point
*My Dad had assault charges reported for calling a stupid blonde woman a Bitch at the Walmart photo studio.....She had the nerve to ask my 84yr. Grandmother, my handicapped mother and myself with 8month old Avery to leave the portrait studio because she and her (ugly) toddler boy were more important and HAD to HAVE their 11 o'-clock appointment (that she was 10minutes late too) though she wouldn't keep her appointment till she had spoken with the police. (Bitch!) never in a million years would I ever consider walking into a place for an appointed time and throw such a fit as to make two handicapped women leave.....Evidently in the state of Florida being called a B**** , is grounds for assault charges but that all happened after this blonde bimbo called my father stupid , told him he needed to get educated and rattled off a bunch of other noisy nonsense in his face. All he did was respond back with what a Bitch she was and she flipped out calling the cops on him and pressing Assault charges.
Boy did I want to kick some Trashy ASS! All I could do was tell her that her child was ugly which I know was pretty immature but she was insulting my father, had no respect for the elderly and obviously had to buy her boobs and was never taught ethics or morals. If She cant take being called a bitch, then she really shouldn't be acting like one.
ok, I was listing off all the exciting things of this week...That one got my blood boiling and was the climax of my Mother's DAy
honestly I'm totally pooped and need to get to bed.Awwwwwh.....my BED! I miss it so much. I've been stuck out on a couch for the past 6days. Its so good to be home.
I'll check in with everyone tomorrow

Gram B, Avery, my mother and myself

my parents with Avery. She's 8 months old and we're celebrating Mother's day by making my mother happy and traveling together to see her mom. its my first mother's day and I dont get to have any recognition other then being a daughter and grandaughter. my mom is keeping me from my husband because she cant see past her own desires. once again, my mother gets what she wants and the sad thing is that she probably wont realize the sacrifice I'm making for her.

My first HNT - Sept. 8, 2005
happy half nakkid Thursday! Got my 17 staples taken out yesterday and I feel a lot lighter or at least more flexible through my middle. Still scared to wear normal underwear so I'm using the hospital boyshorts that are made of netting (they are so comfortable and don't cross my incision) before I went into surgery, the nurse said she was going to shave my stomach....Well lets just say I consider that area a bit south of my stomach

Fixed

And I feel ever so Briliant.

it was a simple problem and I appriciate everyone giving me pointers. sometimes this momma just needs a little bit of encouragment.

the banana bread is rockin' and I would just love to bring you all over to my house for tea this afternoon. I've actaully got the house mostly clean and ready for this trip. of course i feel like i will need to do one more sweep of it all and probably get a lite load of laundry done before we're packed but I'm feeling awfully confident about my world today.

Isnt it amazing what getting your blog back does for someone? now if only i could make the lawn guys hush up for one more hour so the baby can finish her nap...i woould be golden.

I figured something out
don't know what I need to do to repair it but
everyone is currently reading http://www.ultrabright.blogspot.com/

but when I post this and go to hit View Blog (new window)
blogger doesn't open another window like she did in the past for me. Instead blogger takes me to to: http://ultrabright.blogspot.com/ which only shows the beginning half of Mondays post.

Now does anybody else understand what is happening and What I need to do to get back to the old ways of blogging? I'm about to leave for out of town and I don't want to have things in disarray before I leave.
thanks to everyone for putting up with this and me and for giving me words of encouragement. It helped me make it through the day yesterday and I was hoping so bad that this little glitch would be cleared up miraculously by this morning. No such luck but I 'll keep trying.
like Chris said, I bet it terrorist
but on to blogging.....
I got to talk with BAtman this morning. he's getting hairy up there in colorado without his wife and a razor. he said his beard was getting caught in the phone. i miss him so much and we've got 10 more days till he gets to come home for a short visit. I'm so bummed that he's not going to be able to be there for my first Doctors check up. my OB is 'tripple booked" according to his secretary and i couldnt be fit in for another two weeks. guess i get to mail him pictures of the sonogram, i'm going to be so sad having to go through this all on my own. my tummy is getting quite rounded. the other day i was looking through my archives from last summer when i was pregnant with avery and I was astonished with pictures of my big 'ole prego belly. I was HUGE! and i now get to grow it all back out. its actually quite frightening reading my post from last year...all i could do was complain about how uncomfortable i was. and this time i get to do it with a baby in arms. its already starting to get a bit difficult getting up and down from the floor with her. I dont know how i 'm going to do this.

i've baked some banana bread so the house smells sweet. wish I wasnt the only one here to eat it....i guess i could try and give some to AVery and see how she likes it. maybe i'll pack it up and drop it off at my friends. I also have a bunch of veggies that need to be eaten before i take off on my Mother's day excursion to FLorida.
babies waking up now so I have to run.
have a good day everyone.

I'm so confussed right now.....blogger is totally messing up and the only thing i have on here is the first half of yesterdays post...
the rest is missing and I'm starting to get a tiny bit frustrated if not panicy
what happened to the rest of the world? my links? my post? WHERE IS MY BLOG?
if by chance any of you are commenting, could you please leave your link so i can find you again and not be lost forever. I'm trying to get things back to normal.
Maybe Blogger is trying to tell me that i need to stop and pack up my stuff and head out to Colorado

Does anybody else Myspace?
http://www.myspace.com/ultrabright

lace up your boots cause I'm outa here

I think I just have a crappy attitude about things. I mean there are so many times in a week that I just cant stand being around anyone. Like my parents today.....The ten minute it took to drive from natatorium where my mom was showing off Avery to the other Multiple Sclerosis people in her PT class, to meeting back up with her and dad at their house for lunch was such a breath of fresh air. I cant stand being around anyone for very long.....Is it me or are my nerves so fried that I can only put up with beings that don't know how to use the English language yet?
I had the weirdest dream about my sister not having any fingers when we were trying to draw outlines of our hands. I freaked out in the dream about her disfiguration and she shook her hand and out sprouted the missing digits. She had retractable Fingers!!!! Oh, also we found a baby colt running loose in a parking lot so I grabbed onto its neck and tried to find where it came from. We (Avery and I ) discovered a horse trailer up on a hill about a 1/2 mile away but when we got close to it...There were only llamas inside.
pregnancy gives you some super VIVid dreams, I mean there are nights that I have unusual dreams but the hormone surge causes the dreams to be so much more colorful and realistic. I have to admit I do kinda enjoy this aspect of being pregnant. at least I know I 'm getting some sleep.
Avery only had me up at 2am and then again at 4....I decided that 6 was late enough in the day that I could go ahead and get around the house. I've got a ton of stuff to get ready for this coming weekend. Mother's day is being spent out of Town at my GramB's and I'm freaking out about having to spend 5 days cooped up with my Mom and Dad. I just think I have a lousy attitude about being around people....Unless of course if your a friend, then I totally love the social engagements but my family is not healthy.
Mom cant remember crap and today I smelled alcohol on my dad's breath. This trip with them is going to be a strain. Its going to be difficult enough trying to handle Avery and being out of town but if her grandparents don't keep things inline...........I just want to cry. Its too much and its my frickin First Mothers day. Batman was going to be coming home and my mom basically told me that I could wait another week to see him ARRRRRGH!!!!How insensitive can a person be.....My marriage isn't a wreck like hers is. I actually miss having my husband around unlike her. I cant even talk about it anymore. I feel like a trapped child that has no say in the matter and I'm being taken away to fufill my mothers idea of what she wants for mothers day. That's fine,,,,they can pack Avery's and my shit...They can carry it all........And they can be pleased with the fact that they have such a submissive daughter. Why isn't my little sister going? Cause my mother doesn't get along with her and I'm about to make it the same way for us.
I want to be in Colorado so Bad.

congratulations to the jolliepits

my mistake today was brewing a pot of coffee........third cup so far today and the rest of the pot is calling my name. I'm such a junkie for jitters.

I got the whole house cleaned today..the WHOLE HOUSE! like I scrubed the toilet....organized AVery's closet and picked up her room....managed to get the whites washed/dried and folded and the bedlinens changed.... I'm going to miss the smell of my husband in bed now but I 'm pretty sure he's left me for good (that was the coffee talking) Mother's day is going to be a challenge.....dont get to celebrate it for myself even though its my offical first year to be a mommy. instead my spoiled mother is making me go and fufill her mother's day wishes. I just want batman to come home and know how it feels to have breakfast in bed but I guess the batman family doesnt do that sort of thing. I'm super bummed about it. guess I'll just pump myslef up with more caffine except my boobs are going to hate me in the morning. wonder how many pots of coffee it takes to overdose? its a quarter till 11pm and I'm WIRED with all the house work done and the baby's in bed.....what am i to do? waiting to hear from my man except its the weekend and where he's staying , they dont have any cellphone reception. maybe he'll get online and read this.

Honey, my dear, I miss you.........................

ahhh, that's boring to write. we tell each other that crap everyday and here we sit going on 7 nights apart. he's not able to get back for another 2 weeks...............in the mean while I'm pregnant and my tummy is remarkablly rounded. I'm super upset that my waistline is going to be gone by the time batman returns...so much for the sexy feeling. I'll just be too fat to be hot and not fat enough to look pregnant and there really isnt anything worse. I'm going to stop and read around blog land or else start lying for entertainment purposes.hope everyone is well and safe this weekend.

HNT- time for a UA

Edited to say : these are not my daughter getting bigger or growing her hair in. these were taken back in November when she was only 2 months old and still had her hair....................
looks a little stoned here dont you think. not sure where she dropped the dope but the look on her face is not one of innocence.


Half nekkid thursday and I just couldnt stop from posting nekkid shots . if you are wanting to get into the game of HNT....checkout the great Osbasso down in my links at the very bottom.

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.
-Anatole France

kiss it goodbye

found my stalkers today. making a report with the police inthe morning. might just shut this down.
My husband is powerful and I have pepperspray and Oust for the retards that want to kiddnap my baby.