I made the most beautiful blueberry pancakes this morning and topped them off with a dusting of powdered sugar. So good!
went up to the jail and got to visit Batmans homeboy Tom....he looked like Eminem in his jumpsuit. felt weird taking avery up there but it was a funny little family outing.
Lastnight BAtman took me out to see Pirates of the Carrigean Deadmans chest and it was AWSOME. we havent gotten to get out and away from the baby much so having a date was pretty cool. we went up to the Movie TAVERn where you can order dinner while you watch a movie and I got to sit there eating a Chocolate Sundae while enjoying my Jonny Depp. I think for a sequel they did an excelent job and I'm looking forward to next year when part three comes out. did anybody else see Depp on Letterman on Thursday night? is he just not amazing? I went out and endulged in a slice of CHeescake and topped it off with Blueberries....nothing like giving in to ones sweettooth and taking in some eye candy.
Lastnight I had an intresting dream that I really wish had never come to mind. It was of the erotic nature and involved my FIL! I just couldnt get it out of my mind the rest of this morning. talk about wrong...!!!!
I thought my dream a couple of weeks ago about Pauly Shore was freakish but WHY oh WHy must I have dreams about my FIL!?!
Guess Batman needs to step in and Help me out here with some of my pentup frustrations. Its been almost 2 1/2 months since I got pleasureing from him and I guess its getting pretty messed up in my mind.
ok, shared a bit too much. really all i wanted to say was how fatastic my Blueberry pancakes were.

HNT -prenatal jellybean breakfast

Avery has this to say:

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seems to be a littel lefthanded.
sweet girl crawled over to my desk and pulled herself up so I had to let her say her part in this post. TILL she spilled my chocolate milk in my lap!
I need to make plans for her birthday...any suggestions? its in 5 weeks and falls on a Friday. I dont know what goes on for children's birthday parties but I do know I want to have a celebration of some sort....cake and silly decorations/balloons I just dont want it to be so hot and should i wait till Saturday to plan the event so more friends/family would be able to attend?

the GOOD, the BAD, the UGLY TRUTH

Had my 30wk. sonogram yesterday. everything is good and we saw testicles and a chubby beautiful face and I believe I started to feel somthing for this baby. Things have been so stressful around here, ever since I discovered this pregnancy I have been overwhelmed with the prospect of how we/I am going to manage things and it has been far from easy. I honestly have not enjoyed any of this pregnancy and might have actually been slightly bitter towards this baby. Its just been so hard becoming a mother for the first time and then to turn back around and do it all over again within 12 months .... its been a drain on my body and my emotions but yesterday i saw his face and a tear fell down my cheak and I think I do love this child in a secretive way.

Avery's nap was messed up due to the Doc. visit and when Batman came home , I was planning on making supper and putting her down for an ealy bedtime. it had been a big day for all of us.
the phone rang before I got the Bratts started and we had the news that Batmans homeboy "TOM" was picked up at his parole office for dirty UA's (5 of them) it had been a long time coming and batman had been saying that TOM would be going away soon and yesterday was his UNLUCky day. He had continued to keep reporting to his parole office with dirty urine..the last time I heard about it, he was trying to sneek his mother's pee into cheat the system. And this is the guy that BATMAN asked to be AVERy's God father!?! I put an end to that quickly. first off , how dare he even invite someone to that position in AVERYs life without talking it over with me first?! ANy way, the phone call was to say that we had to go and pick up his STUFF from the jail and rescue his truck from the parole office parkinglot. It was such a mess...but i guess when a friend gets stuck in jail you help out in ways that you can. so we packed Avery up in her Nighty T-shirt , threw her in the car and head down to the BIG HOUSE to pick up god father Tom's property. so much for an early bedtime. once we got tom's keys and pimp jewlery from the property office, we had to pick up his PIMP ride abandoned at his parole office and Batman drove it out to a hidden location so the repo man cant find it, or at least so no other thugs decide to strip it
and now to tie the sonogram into this story of TOM's arrest....we are scheduled to have the Csection delivery on Sept. 25 , the day before tom's birthday but I dont know if He's going to be arround in 2 months to see our happy arrival. He really screwed his life up. First by doing donughts up in Michigan snow with an 8ball of cocaine in his sock and then for not staying clean when he's release out on parole.

HNT - I fear the

day that my daughter tells me that she doesnt want me to post pictures of her on my blog. Avery is 10 months old and already a little woman with her shoe collection. we spent a good hour trying on each shoe on both the feet and hands before she decided on the exact pair to go play tennis in.
our game of tennis consist of her stacking the balls in the tube and dumping them out on the floor. sometimes the weight of the tubes is a bit heavy for her to manage so Mommy has to do the dumping but Avery goes right back to stacking the tube again. Such a serious ball player

Humpday-the AM

6:45am
wake up to Batmans alarm....realize that I'm going to have to manage today off the two hours of sleep i got . and what a crazy dream...somthing about watching the map of the world go up in flames as trojans took over eastern Europe and I was having to jump from boats as battle ships kept sinking, It was wild and real and exhausting sleep and I got a whole 2 hours of it in.
Batman is kind and gets Avery from her crib and places her in the bed next to me so she can climb and hug all over my pregnant stomach. what a sweet little girl but I'm dreading having to manage her all by myself today wondering how I'm going to manage the fatigue and swelling and achey back while she climbs around slapping my tummy waking Benjamin up so he start kicking in responce.
fuck this,,,I'm getting a pot of coffee started.
7:00am
batman heads out to work and I set AVery in her bouncy seat next to the kitchen while I prep a sippy cup of Apple juice for her and pot of shitty coffee for me. oh, look there are half the dozen donuts I didnt finish eating yesterday......
we settle into morning routine of me checking email and her greating all her forgotten toys around the living room floor.
7:45am I realize that she's bored and probably needs some breakfast so I set her up in her Highchair and hand her some of my donut to tear apart while I get some strawberries slices and put neatly in a bowl for her.
8:10am RED FACE and GRUNTING and I'm thinking that I should get the camera and snap a few but then I realize that my sweet daughter wont appriciate being captured this way pluss it always distracts her from her work so I leave her to her RED FACed GRUNting.
A few moments later She's wailing and wants out of her chair...I go to lift her and realize that her Pirates of the Caribean treasure CHest had fallen beside her in the seat and I lift it out COVERED IN Her POO!
She's standing in her seat and I realize that her stupid diaper has leaked all over the inside of her highchair and its emergency bathtime.
I rush her to the bathroom sink and carefully rip her pink nighty over her head checking to make sure there was nothing on the backside I was sliding across her hair. Toss that aside while balanceing her with one arm I get the water in the sink going so I can wash off her feet and legs. Avery is now standing in the bathroom sink with only her leaking diaper on and I'm trying to figure out the best way to remove it and wondering how on earth this girl produces so much SHIT. It must come from Batmans side of the family cause god knows, I shit like a bunny.
deciding the easiest route to getting the diaper off is to lay Avery back across the Counter, I lay out a changing pad not wanting to distress her further with a cold countertop on her back. She wines but I dont even hear it...too busy remembering the good ol' days of Avery's newborn diapers smelling like a fresh batch of SugarCookies. nothing like breastfed baby poo...it just smells better and this mornign I was missing it bad.
Got the diaper off and dont understand how there could be only a BROWNIE in the DIaper but an entire MUDPIE across her seat. it just doesnt add up....who put this diaper on anyway? BATMAN did when he first got her up from her crib (figures he'ld do this to me)
get the water started in the bathtub and stick her butt up to the faucet hopeing to loose most of the sticky chuncks from between her legs
there was too much poop to write about here, I feel bad having to mention it so much in this post.
lets just say that by 9:10am I had a clean baby, clean bathtub , sink and counter top, the highchair was drying outside in the sun and I was able to push the vacuum around the house...cause Damit, IF Im going to be cleaning like this, then I'm going to keep at it while I've got the cofee in me.

Just sharing pictures today

dressing up fancy and fun today in the messy bathroom . notice my spot on my tummy...yeah, I'm getting a full figure and catching everything on my boobs and gut these days. I need to borrrow one of Avery's bibs
***********our last visit with my family*******
my crazy/bi-polar father and daughter. He wants to seriously have batman killed so I guess we should start calling him penguin or Mr.freeze or something powerful and evil. HE would like that. A new ride from the G-parents. only scoots in reverse currently my mom and uncle Rory on the floor begging for Goldfish from prissprat AVery...no luck there.
**********4th of July with the BATMAN crew*********
Granny Batman had knee replacement surgery and Avery took over the walker. (lady in striped shirt is great Aunt gloria and she's got a mouth full of Bar BQ)
GRAndpa Stan, Great Aunt Gloria, Me, Batman, Avery and GRAnny with her new KNEE!

growth plates and other nonsense

http://www.niams.nih.gov/hi/topics/growth_plate/growth.htm
Batman has told me many stories of his past in athletics and continually confuses me when refering to a persons GROwth PLate. I've studied the human anatomy and nowhere did we learn about growth plates to refer to the chest or sternum.
Finally on line we have an answer to what Batman thinks a growth plate is.......turns out its the soft spot of bone towards the end of ALL bones that are still growing in children and adolesence.
ITS NOT a region in your chest, its not a bone under your pectoralis, it doesnt lie behind your clavicle......its immature bone that breaks easliy.
EDucated myself a bit tongiht and batman wants to be told that he's smart for knowing a term that I did not.
Too bad he couldnt tell me what a growth plate was other then pointing at his chest and saying to "ASK any of my old football coaches"
But of course Dear, I'm so happy that I married a smart man

baby boom

this week has been long. I saw my OB and my uterus has grown from 4" to 27 " in lenght and has 3 inches more to go. my lungs are crushed, I have kidney pains in my back , and I dont know what happened to my stomach. its squashed somewhere up in my throat because anytime I eat, I feel the food settling somewhere near my heart.
I only have about 2 more months to go and It will be a miracle if I survive. Avery is doing everything a little baby girl should and is working so hard at becoming mobile. Her attempts at walking are the cutest because she gets this super proud smile on her face and sticks her chest out as if to say How Great she is. Its just the hunching over to allow for her to step between my legs while holding onto my fingers that is getting next to impossible. with my Gutt growing so large, I cant bend forward like I need to. there just isnt any space with this baby growing off the front of me. Its hard enough trying to get a full breath when my lungs are so crushed.
oh, man! I'm in for a hell of a time these next months. the only thing that gets me through is knowing that oneday I wont be pregnant anymore. I'll be able to set this baby down and yeah, I know I'm going to have my hands full dealing with Two babies under 13 months but at least I will be the only one in this skin. ITs so hard to be sharing my body. I never totally got it all the way backinto shape before I got pregnant again so I'm a bit fatter with this pregnancy then I was with AVery.
because I didnt catch my pregnancy untill I as already 4 months along, I'm not really sure what my pre-pregnancy weight was. but I'm already 20lbs past my pre-(avery)pregnancy weight....whatever, who cares, as long as my babies are healthy. this body will get back its figure someday.

so tell me about the names we have: Batman is set on the name TAnner
I dont want it for a first name simply because I didnt get to go with my first choice name for AVery.
so I've fallen in love with the name Benjamin TAnner
before we knew Avery was a little girl , we had the name Tanner Gabriel

we're telling my parents that we're naming him Elvis just so that when we have the real name announces they can be relieved.
but what do you think about the two above names? and would it be a mess to name this baby boy with :
Benjamin Tanner Gabriel or is that too long?
I want something that goes well with Avery Juliette
just tossing things around and still open to sugestions.
happy WEekend yall

kisses for baby brother

my bra is now doing double the work. not only does it hold my tits but avery uses it to stand with. I'm so frickin exhausted!

HAPPY BIrthday day HEATHER!!!!

its monday and I'm left to care for avery and unborn baby boy all by myself. this is getting so tiresome for my body. this afternoon I have a doctors visit and hopefully i can get my girlfriend to help out with avery otherwise I'm going to have to leave her strapped in her stroller out in the hall while I pee in a cup and have him measure my fundal (lenght of uterus) amonth ago i was 26" and term is around 30" so I'm getting big.
Last night I tossed and turned, I'm just unable to get comfortable and even if i could, silencing my mind would be the other challange I face nightly. between the bedrolling and the deap breathing I must have fallen asleep because i had a wicked little dream that I had sex with pauly shore..... and it was unpregnant sex and I was desirable but waking up and realizing my choice in fantasy was disturbing..... pauly shore? I had a crush on him back when i was 14 and after lastnights drift off to lala land I think it might have returned
girlfriend already called and said theirs a snag in today's plans....she's not very reliable but unfortunatley she's the only person I have right now and this sucks....
I'll try and post later today with an update on the OB visit

Pirates in the Sun

Happy Weekend everyone......

painted avery's toes this weekend....she was playing on the steps of the pool and a neighbor lady had bright pink toenail polish that avery kept grabbing and sqweeling "oooohhhoooo!!!" so sweet neighbor lady got up and brought her nailpolish poolside and Avery got a slick coat,
pretty fancy baby girl!
my husband got a Job today! He quit his burger flipping job back in Feb. when he reached his one year mark (didnt make sense to me either)
started building a Foundry onto the side of the barn for my dad in March and got fired in April because he kept saying...'two more days' and he was taking weeks to finish the project
left me and the baby behind for the entire month of May to go work up in Colorado and never sent home any money.
and now that he's been home for the last 30 days...he finally got a job and I'm so excited for him and us. not exactly sure what it is except that he's driving auto parts around. I'm so excited that he has work! and he starts tomorrow! I'm praying so hard this work is exactly what we need and will be able to support our family with.
Its been soooo frickin hard not knowing where our next money will come from and having to rely on everyone to help us out. its been completely horrible and depressing. maybe things are turning around. maybe we will be able to stand on our own two feet for once. Its been hell since I packed up my business over a year ago and had to trust on my husband for our finances. maybe this is the turning towards a future, I know I've been so stressed about everything and now maybe I can have a little peace of mind.
I'm so proud of him for finding work! my husband is employed with a real job!

I wonder what david blain is up to these days?

we didnt get to see fireworks for this forth of July
I organized our day and napping schedule to stay up late
Batman swore up and down that Avery would see fireworks but for somereason.....we just couldnt get him out the door in time.
it was 915 and I mentioned the fireworks and if we left, we should be able to see them
at 950 we heard them outside and I took avery into the street but they were out of eye sight
1010 and we loaded up into the car and tried to head in the direction just to arrive in a load of traffic as others were leaving the show.
1045 and we pulled into our parking space at home...no fireworks at all for us, for Avery
1050 and she's in bed and the neighbors are coming home from the firework show with their 8month baby laughing and saying what a wonderful time they had. that the baby was mesmerized by the fireworks and that this year was the best show any of them had ever seen....
I wish we were able to mesmerize Avery with the promised fireworks

my daughter wearing her Winnie the Pooh T-shirt, sitting next to her Tickle me Elmo on her Dora the Explorer foam chair.....ask me 1 year ago if I ever would have had any of that in my house and I would've told you absolutely not.