Tiny print keeps things whispered

Not everyone uderstands what problems I have, dont try to share certain parts of my story just because for some reason, it's too shocking and people dont like to think in these ways.....I feel like i supose to hold the truth in and never get to breath air again. like the whole ordeal was tossed over board and I'm supose to allow it to drownd even though I'm still tied to it. Theres nothing to be done,,, so time just keeps ticking away and soon i'm going to have this baby.
This baby has not been given a daddy because this baby doesnt know. This baby may never know who it's real daddy is because i was gang raped. The Blackmen who raped me were not identified other then DNA from the rapekit at the hospital. I was blacked out and only remember 'flashes' of the assult. Detectives have botched the investigation, because of my limited memory, they only will go by hard evidence and of course the only person I could identify denies eveything. 'everyone else was having sex with her passed out on the ground, I was merely hosting the rape not participating " so this animal gets off scot free.....you have no idea how much pain and anger there is for me. I've finally gotten past the shame, I had to, my belly was growing with a baby inside. yes, I still feel shame when people look at me and know that I'm not married and are judging me.....but what no one understands or knows about is the rape.
Batman stepped up as a support for me and is claiming fatherhood, but what happens down the road when there is doubt of paternity. He's truly been my saviour and helped me deel with my fear. I dont know of anyother person that would be able to do what he has done. It's hard enough to accept the ups and downs of a pregnant woman, but to step in and do everything in his power to create a calm environment for me. To stay by my side during the healing of being raped.....I still have not gotten a chance to breath. My body was molested and used up, I was not able to recover and gain a sense of myself, Instead I had to accept my body's change and swallow my pain, and surrender myself to the abuse that pregnancy causes in a womans body.
What happens when this baby is born and it's not BAtmans? I sound like a slut not knowing who my baby's daddy is but that is not guilt that I should carry. There is so much pain and misery that I have to push aside just to deel with this pregnancy and keep it going.....this is why I'm seeing a shrink, Crime victims compensaiton Fund . I just need for them to cover the cost of a paternity test after the baby is born. nothing could be done before and DNA testing is going to set me back about a grand. the detective said he was going to stay ontop of my pregnancy and do what ever testing needed to be done but now he doesnt even call me back. No wonder the one guy I remember got away, Detective Woodside is a slacker! but I'm still pregant and going to have a baby in a couple of days.