my mistake with jamie

You guys are right about needing to take time for jamie and me. Having this baby and being overwhelmed with the new chores and tasks of taking care of Avery's needs probably has made it difficult to share an adult relationship with him. I guess I needed to be reminded that I need to stay close with Jamie. I really wasn't feeling connected with him.
and after I read some of your comments I realized my mistake. Immediately my perspective changed and showing some love and caring towards him made me feel a little more normal. It's just so different now with a little baby that I feel all my attention has to go towards nurturing her, I guess maybe I had pushed jamie to the side without realizing it. It feels so much better being able to have him with me as opposed to having him around if you understand what I'm saying.
Jamie really is a special man and I love him with all of my heart. I don't know what I would have done without him during this pregnancy. It's been very difficult but he deserves so much credit for tolerating all the ups and downs of my emotions and just overall struggle of this pregnancy. He's been amazingly strong and I probably don't give him the praise that he deserves. Sometimes it's difficult for me to see the things he does because I'm such a perfectionist and criticize how he could be so much better but the underlying quality I can appreciate the most from him is that he has never given up or turned his back on our 'team'
that alone is a precious characteristic that deserves recognition, So Jamie, if you're sneaking a read today, I just want to say how much I really do love and care for you. you have made my world golden and I thank you for sticking by my side and being the best teammate, better then I could ever think a person is capable of doing. You are an amazing man and I want to work on maintaining our special love for each other. You are my friend and I want you to know that I would do anything in the world for you. Thanks for everything that you do; your dedication to our lives, the encouragement that you give me, the laughter and fun that we have spending together,,,I want that forever.