so I just ate 10 pieces of bacon and I'm wondering how long its gonna be till i get sick. it was turkey bacon and the packaging said something about 55% less fat so really it was like only eating 5 pieces of normal bacon. I know I'm a glutton. I eat for comfort sake and i've been feeling so lonely and down in the dumps. every day is the same here, and I have anxiety about facing tomorrow, i just dont want to have another 'today' I spend all my time with Avery and EVERY moment of her day requires me to clap my hands like a sillly monkey and brighten her day and I dont have much to brighten mine. I mean , yes, my daughter is amazing (i wish she could expand her vocabulary and be polite when she needs something instead of hitting me and screaming for it) daily diapers of different colors are our excitement around here, and I like to get into Avery 's closet and dress her but that only irritates my baby. so no fun for mommy.
...just stick another piece of bacon in my mouth and count the seconds it takes to melt
oh and one more depressing thought is how beautiful the Turkey is...I wandered over to PETA on line and accidentally watched a video (scarred my brain) dont do it, I 'm warning you, but ever since then I've been working towards being a vegetarian or at least cutting down to eliminate meat at somepoint.... its been close to two weeks now, maybe thats part of my loneliness, I 'm missing the meat.
dont know, I'm just disappointed in helping destory such magnificent animals.... yup, I think I'm starting to get ill
ok, for those of you who dont get why I'm in a slump when I get to stay home with my beautiful daughter all day..... I'm facing her daddy having to get locked up for 8 days here pretty soon. there's been a dark shadow over me ever since we learned about it and theirs nothing we can do, except pick the date Batman wants to surrender and do his time and then it really will be just me and Avery 24 hours a day for 8 days. i'm kinda freaked about it. my girlfriend has offered to stay with me, I havent said a word of this to my parents so if your reading this mom or dad, talk to Batman about it. the courts were wanting 60 days of jail time and we talked them down to 10 and he gets credit for the two days he sat originally ...I'm just so fed up with the whole court drama, Batman wants to head out to Colorado for his birthday and I say he needs to get this court shit taken care of before he plans to play " But then I'll be in jail on my birthday?" (you got yourself into this mess, its time to act like a grownup and do the responsible thing here) only I'm not allowed to voice my opinion. I'm just suppose to grin and bear it