how i've lost so much weight.....

Hhmmmmmm,

Yes, licking is more for Dogs then for people but I'm sure he meant well. I'll just settle for a hug,,,, a virtual hug for sure cause I'm a bit frightened of getting wet. take that how you will.


;)

8 days

since I've talked with my husband. they transfered him to another unit where he'll do the next 6 months and I havent seen him in 14 days now. I cant remember a time that we didnt talk for this long. its so hard not having him a part of our world. the kids are getting big and are forgetting what its like to have a dad around. its like he's died.
I'm sad. Wish i could have a boyfriend.

not fun

so he's not been getting much sleep but says that the time awake give's him availability to consider how he's messed up our lives. still cute to me and the jumpsuit brings out the green in his eyes.

a Cave family

so we're a week into his sentence and i'm managing things SO Much better then i thought it would go. very stressful at times with all the screaming that goes on in the house but its at least just the kids and not my voice.

I'm so happy to see my friends on here and apologize for not making it around to comment though i've read your blogs. hands tend to be so busy and always ocupied with diapers and feedings...... gosh, feedings make me feel like i'm a farmer to swine. seriously, i'm able to cook up some sort of breakfast in the mornings and throw it out on a tray in the living room while the babes just sorta fling it around and get some in their mouths. its impossible to sit down and actually spoon it into benjamin's mouth cause then avery's not eating and wants to "help" spoon it and then its a half hour later with the same mess and only one child's eaten. I'm doing what works but sometimes I wonder how badly I'm making it at motherhood.

avery's Brilliant, she only just turned two lil' over a week ago and when i asked her why benjamin was acting so bad and screaming, she simply put it, " Dada." meaning, because dad's gone, benjamin's acting up. avery's just smart and amazes me.

its going to be so weird living the next couple of months just the three of us and then having to reintroduce their father to them. that's the roughest thing to think about cause in the mean time, we'll have developed our lives without his presence just to have him intrude once again. hopefully it wont be too abrasive. Itll been nice. I miss having him. my feet need massaged.

people still read here?

I'm still here. Life's taken some turns and i've been focusing on home life with the Husband. I apologize for my long absence, its done me a bit of good returning to the REal world. ;)
Today was the Day that Batman was put away. i get to be a single parent for the next 180 days and have Absolutley No support group other then the people who helped make his stay longer (my parents).
We have a new fish and i'm not suppose to let it die, dumb fish doesnt even have a name. its a Beta with Red and Blue all throughout but the glass rocks in the bottom of his bowl are lite purple. think I'll call him Francis.
Pavarotti Died.
not much else other then I've realised I have a Mega fondness for Cavemen. that Geico comercail got me started and then we watched the Flic. the Clan of the Cave Bear and i just cant stop myself . Neaderthal Forever Baby!